Jus wanna to hold on to u.. When nothing mattered~

✖I don't care what life will be in future!_____I jus wanna to hold u TIGHT close to me!_____✖

Friday, June 22, 2007-haix-

_=My mind was so BLANK!=_

Today i wake up at 1 ...lolx veri late rite but den in between gt wake up 3 times bahx...
1st time phone ring...
2nd time phone ring again..
third time dun nid to sae liao is also phone ring lolx....
Today was quite a boring day for mi bahx..Sae reaili de i can't concentrate on my studies at all...
My mind was so blank ..
So i went to visit sw de blog....Haix sad again ...
I reaili dunno what to do sia...Mind so blank again...
Now my house was so cold and dark , raining narhx so heavily.
Jus two more day left to sch reopen...3weeks and 4days so fast jiu past le...
Soon it's going to be my 'N' level le... I reaili dun wish to disappoint anyone! But will i able to pass?
I reaili dunno... Now i dun wan to start any relationship ,wad i wan is just study and study.
The past few years how many ppl been disappoint by mi? I can say is uncountable...
Every time i tell myself...' Time is rushing , there's no more time for mi , fast fast fast! '
I keep telling to myself yet i can't do anything about it.
Who dun wan to improve their study .. Everyone wants , but how!

**Problems keep coming out...**
I always tell myself think positive! And i must! Regardless of how sad am i , how confuse i am..
Yeahx i know i been EMO sometimes but i also dunno why...
Everytime i went out there's always one min i like to be alone....
Hey i'm not sad u know~ I'm not emo too....
So never think of that...I always thinking positive de...Hahax...^-^
dun nid to worry abt mi...Sometimes i do wan to be alone wor...But that the way i am!
Hey sister...No matters what...I will always be there..I might not be any help but i can be a listener ,plz bear this in mind...
And of cause not only to my sister but to all of u...

This few days i keep going out wif my pdp sister..hahax...Have alot of fun~~
Hey sisterz~ when u all will be coming to my house and watch the ghost movie?
Hahax...Fun sia...I wan to scare sw again...lol ^-^

=_To my PDP sister_=
Sorry sister...how much i wish to help , but i'm still can't...Haix
Do u all think i'm so useless? Maybe bahx.... If anything if u all think i can help de just tell mi okayx?
Time passes real fast..Soon is sw and my mum b'day le And den huiyi de...And mine...Followed by chengchin de... Wow~ Soon we all will get out IC le..hahax
And of cause soon is our sec3 camp & EXAM!

**Lifes is always up and down**
Is easy to lost their trust But is hard to grain their trust back once more...
Is easy to sae then do
Things are easy to lose but it's so hard to find back...

*_=To my ms lao gong.. =_*
Sorry leh lao gong , So far in my blog i didn't mention u at all...
Reaili so sorry...
Time passes so fast wor...We known each other for almost 3 years plus le wor
Hahax...I still remember that u are my 1st std in ms & rl...
Even though i didn't std wif u in rl but i already took u as my rl std ^-^
Then alot of brk & patch here.. and there....lolx so sorry >.<
Thank you lao gong...
I know even though last time i brk wif u , u are always waiting for mi
Regardless of those hurtful words i said before , whether i am another bf ornt...
U will always there waiting for mi...
I still remmeber got one day we was planning to married in the end i called it off...
Because i quit ms le...Haix hai dao ni lose ur 4 prepaid ms card...
Sorry again ><

--+29/05/07--+
On this day we got married in msn... Shock rite? Married in msn?
well , no body in the conversation only got us...But we took god as our witness..^-^
Lao gong ~ wo ai ni 13 14 & is always 184 ^-^

Sign off...
Thinking positive now and den.....^^

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5:05 PM

Monday, June 18, 2007pic

_=Some Pic we [PDP] Took=_

I'm
Wearing
Black
T-Shirt

+ Four of US! +

+ PDP + 184+

The
Stars
That
Represent
Us

++Stars Of us! ++

These are some of the Neo prints that are taken in 14 of june!!! The day we went out together once again!

Sign off
Having Positive thinking

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1:35 AM

--[Nco Camp]--

=_From CPL to SGT_=

Honesty the day i came back from the camp...Or after i came back from the camp ..Those ppl that i expect to ask mi about the camp didn't does that haix...Sad man! Maybe to them camp is nothing bah...But honesty this camp to mi , Is a camp that quite important and alot of suffering bahx...But compare to our last badge we are nothing lor...

Why do i sae so?
3days & 2night we got ard 200+ - 300+ of push-up but compare to our last badge those seniors are doing much more than us! Well , our nco camp was quite slack bahx that what my frens think. As for mi ok lor...

Who wondering what do we do in camp?
Guess no one...Haix..Nvm i keep it to myself will do !
But What i really like is the one and only games we had...
It's prove our team spirit , Leadership and ect ...
Guess what there are 3 round in total and i was in all rounds -.-
That games is something that u have to use ur own team poncho and u are not allow to touch anything like tables, chairs and ect

1st round -
6 ppl went in left 2 [ mi & another frens of mine ]
So I accidentally talk [ In the games rule we are the player and we can't be talking during the games , once u talk u will be calling out of the game !!]
Den i was calling to go out...zzzzz But bo bian the whole team called to restart again !
--Success are come wif failure-- So we did try again!

2nd round-
I forget how many ppl went in le...But left wif 2 again and is the same person lor...
Den finaly we make it!!!! Yay!!!

3rd round-
I went in again zzzzz
5 ppl make it through include mi of cause!!! hahax
After all i was in all sweat! But it's was quite fun afterall!

Last but no least!
Is the prize giving
Well, in the squad there are 19 of us and 6 of us got the SGT rank and i'm on of them!! ^-^
hahax i was so surprise man!
Cause normally i can't get through instead I nid to retake again de but this time i dun nid!!!! hahax Darn happy...^0^

That it for my camp...Haix i know is short but who really cares? ><>

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1:09 AM

Friday, June 8, 2007-day before-

-The last post before i go 4 camp-
Lolx ^-^

Huh? To- shuwei
Wei, if u notice mi de hua...U will see that i quite happy / cheerful even before u went to slp.
The reason because thz to ur post ytd bahx...hahax dunno why after i saw ur post den is like well..Start to think positive once again lolx...Thz alot ^-^

To all bahx...
Well, Dun worry abt mi ^-^ i will tc de u all also hor...If i come bak find u all didn't tc of urself hor u going to get it from mi wahhaha...=p=p=p
Dun miss mi hor...hahax i will miss u all de ^-^

Aiya abt the solo night nvm leh...Saw ghost jiu saw lor...Nt big deal rite..hehex^-^
Fail nco course jiu fail lor...Scold mi scold lor...Jus dun too guofen can le...Ltr i beat them up..Hahax jk jk ltr i will get punish if i beat them lolx....Jus scold them at most or walk away bahx..<<^-^Smile~~>>

Okay bah it's time for mi to go camp le.....Hahax tc guys..^-^
Miss u all hahax...
Dun come and look for mi ar at solo night cause ltr i tot u all are ghost lolx...Hahax..
Narz...Shuwei , huiyi and chengchin look like one of them(ghost)
hahax....Hehex ltr they come and beat mi wah...Die nvm lucky i at camp hahax...
Too bad cann beat le or scold mi le...=p
Aiya at camp i think they sure will miss my quarreling/Rubbish rite haha nvm i come bak den we contuine lolx...scold each other song bo~! lolx...I siao le...hahax
TC WOR~~~~~

** Ppl sae positive i sae negative**
**Ppl feel wad i have to feel the other way round**
Funny rite...K that's mi Hahax....Nice nice nice....=p

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11:49 AM

Thursday, June 7, 2007why?

==Why it's have to end like tis before i go for camp? ==

Today i dunno whether should i feel happy or sad? Haix...
The reason i sae this because :
I feel happy ytd go out wif huiyi and sw
I feel happy when i was playing wif my bro ,nephew and chengchin
And also going out wif chengchin's frens and shuwei

Feeling sad is because :
I dun wan to sae bahx haix..
Jus want to kept my feeling

##So many question i have been asking myself again and again##
I reaili dun understand why..
Why i have to feel sad
Whenever i got camp or go oversea
Why can't i Just carry a happy memories wif them
Why and why?

** Sorri tis was a short ,Full of question and feel wif sadness posts**

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7:40 PM