Sunday, November 30, 2008Here I Am~
Just before i Starting my posting for today..Let mi post some of the photo..Taken.............. On 28 Nov 08 (Fri)
Here We are At Paris Ris Park
Smile~Be Proud as u all are Appearing on my blog!Musfirah, Huiyi & Chengchin
Eh? Alamak..Actually My name Wasn't appear on there!But thanks to chengchin ar.. Wrote my name over there..hahaz... =PAddition Words for tis photo ~ Friends Forever~! =]
Fyra was musfirah nicknames~ (Now den i know)=="
My goodness! My mickey mouse hand had only 3finger?zzz..Forgot to draw another one...lalalaz..But i love it! hahaz..Plz do not ask me, why is there a "cp" name on top..As i reaili dunno.. Why is it appearing on there!!! 
Here U go~ A Redrawn one..I know my drawing was ugly But well,Dun care larhx.. No idea why cc took tis photo either..hahazMaybe she can read my mind? lolx`~
No Violence Ar~ hey hey Chengchin..Hw can u ask them to take tis photo as evidence?Dun worri lar i wont kill u de(although I seems to~)hehex...
LAst But Not LEast~
A Only photo taken by four of us! Why do i sae "only"?Coz got most of the photo I wasn't inside!! as u all know..I dun like to take tis photo...but well, U will never know hw i think inside my heart =PThere are actually more photo taken on that day..Just tat i lazy to post everything,so yar...zzz... I dun like to take photo actually...But thanks to them...=="But i think musfirah even more worse..She threatened mi to take photo wif her.. arh!! But i wanna her to feel happy tat why =]It was worth afterall~! Roughly wad is gg on tat day~We met at bus Interchange..And yar.. Cc seems du lan in me! okay.. I know, i talked alot..Behaving so childish..And worse I'm like "attracting attention from others" (tat's wad ppl think)OKAY ! I'm NOT ! haiz..I dunno why am i doing tat..Wadever ar.. I talked too much , ppl find mi irritating & craps..When i didn't talked..Ppl sae mi Emo~Haiz..I have no idea wad i should do~I was stick to musfirah all the way, as cc & huiyi were tgt?went to buy things le..And head to paris ris.was talking to musf all the way..Yup! took another bus to Paris ris park,zzz..They dun let mi take those thing..And worse nt sitting wif me! arh!!! Okay they dun like me! >< even walking also like tat..Sian~!~! Alright~! just leave mi alone? yar! Great! I love it!I talked to the branch~Trees Or even grass! omg!I'm crazy somehw~Den , ok reached there..sat down..and they went to the sand..zzz..So suay , My shoes Spoil , i have no shoes to wear so bo bian bare Footed!okok..Dun think I'm gg too detail..So yupz.Went to sand and start to have mentally problem.Chit-chat wif musfirah again..As she sat away from us?Barefooted and walked to downtown east? yar!~ Even worse...IT keep starting raining somehw! Took bus bak to hm! okay..that's it no more!On the bus saw my bro's frens
He gave mi some advice abt the course I can choose on.
Some hw , my ambitions is change to "None" ?
=Monkey-
I'm Tired...having no reason to stay xxxxx in tis world
12:14 AM
Friday, November 28, 2008Please smile...
Sorry for not posting for the past two days..As I was veri tired of posting..and ytd i was having a veri bad headach..[+27 Nov 08+]Today is a day whereby i meeting dw,ken and jie.starting meet dw 1st den meet jie..Having a real bad headach today but didn't got any medicine outside..So bear wif it till i reached hm which is 11plus p.mI hesitated for whole day today , whether wanna to meet jie ma..Coz, she recently got alot of projects and hw to follow-up,which is veri bz..By rite , i think the purpose of meeting her was to accompany her to go somewhere..
But since i have already helped ask le ,
The purpose of her meeting mi wasn't there anymore..
I dunno , sometimes i feel wad i do for her wasn't enough..
Compared to her contributed and mine..
Hers always overwhelmed mine..If anyone asked mi, wad so big deal abt her contribution? I can sae, so far, i can't find anyone who does the way she do.yes! is nothing big deal abt..Anyone also can teach.. But ask urself..Do u have the "heart" to teach someone?Do u even have the determination to do it? Beside teaching , are u willing to help/care 4 someone?But frankly speaking , I appreciated everyone's contribution.Different ppl contributed differently..Some will care 4 u , love u , teach u , being considerate and more! So I try to to repay it ..But somehw , some ppl just dun appreciate it,I reaili speakless , nothing to sae anymore~I couldn't think anything at the foodcourt while eating wif dw and jie.Coz i was having a bad headach .. And for no reason , i became easily frustrated and out of sudden , while dw was complaining mi abt my lazy action i scolded him "fu?"Haiz, jie wasn't like it .. But i was frustrated..den sian diao..haix.. After makan .. i and dw got to go for function..My head was pain throughout the nite..Darn it!After the function jiu came hm le..
Today i was kinda thinking too much or can sae assuming thing. .
But i guess, i might know u well to think hw u would feel.
But it was a bad one, sad huh?
=[monkey]=
Negatively
=26 Nov 08=
Wake up at 12 plus and prepare to go out as meeting my mum..
So went out wif my nephew for lunch ..
and who knows , we forgot to pay for our roti prata.. zzz
I only remembered only at 5plus..when i was abt to go out.
after my lunch.. I and my nephew cycle to yishun central and helped my jie asked abt something..
Who knows.. After we go out, it start raining..
And bo bian rain getting heavier den somemore we cycle half-way
jiu continue cycle till we got hm..
Everything was wet , include our clothes..
Didn't go bath once i reach hm, as i just bath in the afternoon before i went out.
So just changed clothes and play games..
My sis jio mi to vivo city, den went wif my nephew as well.
Have dinner at the chicken rice shop..
Food was nt bad.. hahaz.
shop ard..=]
and go hm le...
ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--
1:50 AM
Wednesday, November 26, 2008Changing for better, i guess
# 25-Nov-08#Same again, i wake up at 2plus,going to become pig le larhx..zzzzWake up le, asking my bro whether he wanna to go gym ma..Den finally, his ans was "ok"Den prepare hao le jiu go gym...Was kinda shocked when my bro insist mi to finish it..As in, do 10 times den reaili have to do..But i liked it , as by forcing mi , I wont find a way to be lazy.So we were there ard 1hr..Was kinda short..Didn't go gym for quite a while le, den like can't do much..Went to 800+ and eat , can't reaili finish as the food was nt veri nice..lolz..Den wait for bus 811 after makan , go hm le wor! time was ard 6plus p.m like tatWe planned to go out and play BB at 9p.mSo went hm and rest , while my bro is sleeping..I was playing games wif my sisArd 9plus, We went out and wanted to go to the nearest BB court, But there are many ppl there playing so we went to 300+ and play.Half-way there, meet my nephew and we play together..Nice one! No ppl was at the court..We played till 10p.mAnd suddenly, Lights just went off like tat~! Cool~ It was dark and we still able to shoot at the ring.. hahaz.. ard 10plus , jiu go hm le , bro go fetch his gf while my nephew cycle hm.. And left me..Walking bak hm ..but was veri cooling , hw i wish i can stay there longer den can enjoy the breeze."Must go hm early, as Is veri dangerous for a gal to be outside so late!"haix..ppl always told me that..So bo bian, have to go hm early~~U know wad?Today i was veri happy!!!Two ppl reaili appreciated wad i had done! But however, i wasn't veri good at expressing hw i feel in words,Maybe there's the reason why , I kept my feeling only to myself.In facts, I wasn't good at expressing my feeling in Reactions as well.Hence, alot of times, ppl wasn't veri happy, as My reaction isn't wad they expected.But deep down , u could see the reaction that u expected.=]=Always remember wad ppl's had done for u!=
bu yao wang en fu yi !
-Monkey-
3:35 AM
Tuesday, November 25, 2008Plz larh ...
[-24 Nov 08-]
Today helped my mum wif household le.. Jiu play games,
den watch deathNote3(coz reaili nth to do)
half way through got to pei mi sis go somewhere..
den went to LJS and makan.
saw my mum wif that hatred jenny & her family..
Actually I super dun like her de.. But mum wanna to eat dinner wif them..Den jiu..
Suan liao..
Saw them le , i and my sis like sian diao..den we turn our head to face other place..
Lucky they nv saw us, phew~~
Dun even wanted to talk a single word wif them.
After eating, den we shop awhile jiu go hm le.
At hm, same thing, watch DN3 den play games..Plus chatting wif frens.
Dunno what's my last min plan 4 tml again..
Maybe go do some excerise or something else bahx..
=XiaoQ=I dun get wad u mean in the tag..Are u telling mi tat I wanna ppl to pity me?Or are u simply telling mi that, wad i post mux be happy de even when I'm sad? For ur info , Blog is something that ppl's talked abt their "story" or even some used to sell things.But for my case, I talk abt my "story" each day..I believe, most ppl life faces different problems each day..Mood as well, some high and low..So u can't possibilties sae that, I have to post only happy things when I'm sad,If even posting sadness also cannot, I can't find the freedom of posting anything anymore. yes, today quite peace~~!~~!and I have a piece of good news, will share it wif u all when I've gotten it..=]I
Miss my Np juniors , teachers , Northland's frens , teachers===When I can see them again??><
--Monkey--
Having a few good frens is enough 4 me..
ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--
3:29 AM
Sunday, November 23, 2008Hang on , is wad i can tell myself now..
...23 Nov 08...Sis wake mi up 2day and went to HKcafe and makan wif my bro & his gf.didn't ate veri full...Den went hm and took my HP and went out again wif my bro & sis to orchard.While walking..Dunno why my bro suddenly praise me..==" 1st time he praise on my result..But haix.. I feel more pressure onto it.As i didn't know they are putting lots of hope in mi..Wif confidence somemore~I started worried abt my result again.."I can't afford to fail ~~" I always tell myself tat.But i ..Dunno..What will my result turns up to be?and dunno hw..Quarrel between mi sis and kor started..Aiya, it was jus misunderstanding..and haix..I dunno why these few days, quarrel between my family members keep happening..Izzit becoz of mi?maybe.. I dunnoHope things will turn better tmlFriendship problem had stop and yet family problem start again..
Maybe till the day i die, peace den i can get...
=Someone=
wtf, u are the only person who pity me!
C'mon nt at if ur frens are great...
yes, u are just freaking lucky to get to know her as ur frens,
So wad? in the end, they turn u down when u nid help?
Or u jus freaking lie to me?
Shut up and u are no way better den mi either!
+monkey+
Life getting harder now~
ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--
11:35 PM
Saturday, November 22, 2008Unreasonable..
=22 Nov 08=
Wow, Today slept till 2plus, Had nothing to do..
Den went to put medicine on my doggy's leg,
Sis was out wif bf and i was at hm wif my kor.
He even more worse slep till 4plus..lolz
Waiting for my sis to be bak! And yes! she brought food hm for us!
I was hungry till dying le..I finished everything~~=]
Den went online and prepare to go out as my mum asked me to take bak the bicy
It was raining heavily then so i wait till the rain had stop and den went out.
Go out and buy bubble tea and drink..I miss it alot~~hahaz..
and then , jiu go hm liao ...
Haix, when wanna to play the games , my bro dunno wad happened keep knocking on my head,
when I'm slow? zzz...Freaking irritating...
Fire just started like tat,
Start quarreling wif my bro and the good thing is tat my sis helping mi..
But i dun like her when she ask my bro to let mi ~~
I dun wan! Why should he let mi? And i didn't do anything wrong?
I gets angry and tears just flows down like tat..
i went to online and chat wif a frens as i can't find anyone to talk to?
But didn't chat much as i wanan to be left alone..
zzz...Tears didn't stop and my head was veri pain..
so went to slp , my sis wanted to an wei wo , but i told her i gg to slp like i always does.
and now I'm online, =]
feeling better after slping.and my kor got to bak hm wif my favourite
Snack! hahax...=]
Wow,it had been awhile eversince i last cried?hehex..Although i tot alot of negative things when i'm crying , in facts those negative things were facts~But dunno why ppl told mi nt to think abt it? Especially my counsellor....So many things were left unanswer~And yet i found the ans to the question , but people deined that, that was the answer to the questions.So why nt u ans 4 mi?instead of asking myself to find it? *Monkey*
-Getting impatient soon-
ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--
7:04 PM
Friday, November 21, 2008After ALL ~~
<=21 Nov 08=>
zzz..why these few days i slp till 11plus sia..Same as usual lor , wake up le jiu go prepare..Den play games awhile & makan wif my nephew jiu go out le.Went to POSB before gg to meet jie..hahaz.. i ask the same person 4 three times,lolz... den she sae sorri we are close now! nice one!Actually i asked her but didn't expect her to sae NOW!lolz ....Den went to basement outside foodcourt wait 4 jie.So many ppl pass-by yet i didn't see jie.Den actually she at OCBC wait 4 me le.. =="hahax..den went to popular & foodcourt plus basamalan..We chit-chat all tat...But in the end who win?eh!!! me? her? i dunno..hahax..den i walk wif her to chongpang ..DEN!Saw someone which are nt suppose to..Which i DUNWAN TO SEE!den actually dun wan to call her but bo bian..Still hesitating whether wanna to call her ma.Den talk abit jiu , wanna to sae byebye badly to her.den continue chatting wif jie till her block there.After tat i was hoping nt to see her again as i walk bak to NP !zzzz..I ddin't expect so many suay things to be happened at the same day!Darn it! wasn't my day today, But i still veri happy to go wif jie and i saw some of my frens today.
den she msg me, "actually wanna tell you I'm at yishun de but..."
Den i was thinking "lolz, u tell mi also no use i wont go meet u anyway!"
I was like veri unhappy when my mum was eating...coz, all the suay things ar..Make mi so miserable, den i was like emo larhx..zzz.till i was at bus inter-change..I saw two of my frens..den chit-chat, Yes i found someone who cycle till sengkang sia!nt bad! next time i ask her jio me there...hahax!!! Looking forward 4 tat day to come~Althought today got so many suay things happened..
But after all, i still enjoy alot wif jie ! =]
Wah! shit i forgot to ask her sth..zzz
zzz, i failed again to stuff $$ into her wallet!! arh!!
And let her saw it again ==", worse is she got the chance to attack me..lolz
>< [Let's try it once more..Hehehx.]
And yea, today had over! hahax...
-->Coming up<--
Sat & sun wif family
next week gg out wif
chengchin, huiyi ,
DW, ken
Musf,ash,rupini,shobana,santina,
& more!!
*who wanna to go out den if wanna jiu jio mi out lor.. *
STOP hinting mi whereby my heart to u is already dead!
STOP IT and freaking get away from me!
Ur "spell" isn't working at all ! & ...
Why are u keep coming bak whereby I'm trying to 4get u??
I'm sick and tired of ur craps, rubbish,irritating things, childish action & everything..
But i just can't ....
I... haix..
IS OVER! and that's it! No MOre! I dun nid u From the start~!
I had never regrets of having any godjie before..
But since the day u appear , u make mi regrets of accepting u as godjie!
Why are u getting my trust?
Why are u getting so close to me whereby we just knew each other?
Why are u wanting to know abt mi so much?
What are ur motive?
Is all these under ur 'plan'?
I regretting talking to u so much...
And yet u sae is fate tat we knew each other? And I'm darn stupid and agree wif u?
OMG! How could this be happening!!???!???
U are no different from them..One thing make u different is that u are a gal!
and u seems to care 4 me while it makes mi so uneasy!!! I hate tat feeling...
Thanks goodness~ I realised it when things aren't worse!!!
Thanks 4 letting mi see ur little devil tails at the bak!
Hopefully I didn't fall deep into ur devil trap!
=Monkey=
Tired sia..
10:23 PM
Thursday, November 20, 2008A beautiful day!
[~ 19Nov08~]Today went out wif huiyi,andy,bes,liying to treat miss chee & ms oh...hahax, I went early there as checking the price and all..While waiting for the rest, i shop ard and book the table 1st.Went to timeZone and watch ppl playing..Hahax.i was at there secretly laughing at them!coz the way the kids play is darn cute larhx.Den went to toliet before gg to soul garden.wow! Finally they all reach liao..But ms oh still haven reach yeteh! everyone was late =.="hahaz, lucky I'm nt... lolhalf way through, before entering the soul garden, miss chee sae wanna to go sthwow! so secretly sia..coz she dun wan mi and huiyi follow..lolzDen i and hy waiting outside the soul garden while andy they all went in and eat 1st.Wow totally was like $122 for the buffet? ehx, lolzMiss chee and ms oh like got lots of things to talk sia!hahaz.. i and hy was like oO?den andy they all sat the next table..Den we chit-chat and eat lor.. Eat until we can't take it anymore sia.Suddenly , i tot my wallet lost sia..Den some like so shock larh..i was like, eh"? hw come leh? Den i start looking lor..eh! The most ps things is! I put at the another pocket of my pants!hahahaz!!! I was darn ps man.. lol..Sorri guys, let u all shock awhile..den jiu continue eating le..hehex..lucky~~FULL~~~Den miss chee and ms oh wanna to pay us bak , den i sae " hey guys..Zhao liao lehx.."den everyone leave liao..lolzwe eat from 2.15p.m - 4++ bahx..After tat miss chee got to leave den jiu nvm lor,Before she left, she gave mi a birthday present! lolz..Quite long liao wor..My b'day is over!! But anyway thanks ! =]We went to shop ard...After tat, andy they all got to go bak to yishun liao..Den ms oh, huiyi and i went to woodlands library..Coz ms oh wanna to return books,Den we went basement shop shop le..Jiu byebye!went to NP wif huiyi ,we shop everywhere!!!Den went to basamalang~~~ From the start walk till the endAnd finally go hm le..I was playing wif huiyi all the way sia..I keep teasing her and the another guy..=PWhen she took bus le, i jiu walk hm lor..coz ez-link gg no $$ le >< Sorri no pic was taken today as...I was too lazy to.. hahaxIt had been a long time that i was so happy ever since..............????Tml gg to meet jie le wor~~~hehex...THANKS 4 turning up for today guys..
4 treating teachers as well!
I hope to have it once again~~~!!!!
and last but nt least! I WANNA TO PROMOTE TO SEC 5 NEXT YEAR (09)
So tat i can see all my friends and teachers~~Chat wif them and have fun once again!
Love was sux !love was BLind! I dun understand why do she hate me..Just becoz i sae bad things abt her std? while i was just saying what i think who he was?Hey i am ur mei lehx, yet u seems to be more siding to him?Do u know hw hurts it is -whenever i see u been hurt? -whenever u told me i dun understand how u feels?yes! i might nt reaili understand wad love means.Neither do I trying to accept who he is..He is a BAD Person! Haix.. maybe i shouldn't think tis way BUT!!! Time will tell wad kind of person he is!! If u ask mi why do i think love is sux.. I could sae i see Tears in BGR more than joys.So my impression of BGR is veri bad~~ Keep seeing tears and hurts through frens and all..well, maybe my impression of BGR will changed as i growth up.. =]Anyway those who are in BGR now, i reaili hope ur can everlasting and remember when u all marriage mux send mi the invitation card!!! hahaz!!! =P
ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--
8:25 PM
Wednesday, November 19, 2008LEt mi start WIF .....
Sour? Bitter? Spicy? Sweet? Is that what we should gone through everyday?But ..This had make my life sick and tired~Having telling myself , I mux hang on there~Even when I was able to give up!So well, We can't give up afterall !!! Even if we wan to , plz tell urself DON'T GIVE UP!I know is hard but just keep trying and have FAITH in urself !I know EVERYONE CAN DO IT if u all wan to!!!Phew~ Another day had gone..??19 Nov 08 ??Wake up at 7 a.m , 7.15 a.m , 8a.m, 10a.m? and finally, 10+ a.mHad to go hospital again due to some reason..Don't worri is not me..stay there from 11.30- 3p.m like tat..Wow! I was veri hungry! hhahax..Went to NP , and makan.. But i and my sis didn't manage to finish everything.eh~Was totally unlike me, I used to eat most of it , but i dunno..My stomach ~~ Haix..Feels darn hungry and yet easily full.Was it becoz of my mood? I dunno, i lose my appetite easily.Well, that's good! i can lose weight hahaz..=]After eating , we went to basement shop shop..Went to pet shop and brought one shirt and snack for my Teddy! hahax..After tat went to buy ice-cream~ er...Darn ex! $3 per cup? ==" lucky nt i pay! After tat jiu went hm le bahx...ZzzZzz..Sian, my mum problem again..Darn it! I think i wasn't myself recently..Been easily getting distracted by things,Where my soul and mind had gone? I dunno , Hw am i suppose to react, think , do, talk, To make it rite again.I seems Easily Pissed off, irritate , frustrated & moodySo if happened to be towards anyone den I'm sorri , I dun mean tat, just that my nerves seems to be relocated wrongly! --Monkey--
Not getting anywhere further~
ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--
11:10 PM
Tuesday, November 18, 2008Things are getting on my way nowadays..
Jus before i start posting for today..i would like to know if my post recently seems so emo?coz quite a number of ppl telling mi tat i'm emo ==""18 /Nov /08"Help my mum wif household le, den still had to bring my dog to the Vet..Before gg out, his leg bleeds..zzzzbut lucky, stop le ,den take cab go to the vet there..eh, lucky nothing serious, just same things wif the another leg..=="Den eat at there wif my nephew and my doggy, but too bad my dog can only watch me eat! hahax..Wow! i had a hard time trying to put eye drop on my teddy, he hai dao wo allergy again! Darn it! Twice for today, Darn xin ku larhx but bo bian lehx..After my sis reach hm liao, we go to the vet again to buy a bigger cone for my dog.Den head to coffee shop for dabao fan.Haix, today i nv save $$ sia..Infacts is these few days i nv save money..Haix...But i like to go out wif my 2nd sis coz food all she pay! hahax..These few days also nothing to post..Darn sian..GG out again!!eh,not now of coz..but tml! hahax..>>Monkey<<
Hang on!!
10:39 PM
Monday, November 17, 2008Bear wif it a little longer!
My little monkey talking to u all! lolz.......17 Nov 08.....Today, went up at 9.15a.m to prepare..11.10p.m reach MRT le.. wif my nephew..waiting for bread to come den head to harbourFrontactually is helping bread to pass the form de but suddenly she sae she can tag along..den jiu nvm lor.My nephew darn fan larhx... keep stick to me =.= darn it!ps lehx bread , my nephew is darn naught de..lolzGo there.. Shop den go orchard meet my big sis..Jiu head to AMK le.. Bread was wif mi all the way till she go work! hehex...Ps lehx, let u wait for so long..We went to eat at amk after tat.. Actually nv plan to eat le..But den too hungry liao jiu eat lor.Worse thing is that i brought $20+ and yet i left wif nothing..I brought new wallet for $10 nia , plus have to pay for my bro present..Jiu broke liao..Nice one.. I still have to treat teacher de lehx..Darn it!Den bo bian , my big sis had to pay for my shoes..haix..After gg to yishun , den still have to go orchard find my second sis..lolz!!!! From yishun --> Harbour Front-->Orchard --> AMK--> Yishun-->orchard --> yishun=.=""I was darn tired man..Den fall aslp on the way hm.. lolx.. Okay den reach hm play games and chat on msn==16 NOV 08==Wake up in the morning and rush to orchard for KTV(early bird)Wah si Dw keep sms mi de lehx =="After tat went to wisma , taka, far east plaza and go hm!reach hm liao..Same lor play games all tat.. lolzDen slack whole day...Online at nite but where jie ar? nv u're online? lolz..chat wif huiyi, andy they all on msn..Stay till 2 plus den jiu go slp liao..tml still had to wake up early.That's all for two days,
Getting tired easily, and i looking forward for thursday and fri..
I'm gg to win le wor..
Beside win , i still have to think of way to treat u hahax..
u're gg to lose..
=p
Seriously leh ah J , since u dun wish to pursue it anymore,
i wont either, like tat u make mi even more hate her for breaking her promise.
I hate ppl doing like tis, and yet wanting to help u but u push me away.
Den jiu forget it lor...since u dun appreciate it.
[monkey]
Getting tired easily(think i old liao)
ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--
11:15 PM
Sunday, November 16, 2008xx Wahx.. Sian sia.....xx
No Pic today..Psps ar..I will start posting le.. hehex..Coz the dark cloud is gone!Wah sian , my sis dun allow mi save $$ sia..Darn it..Coz at nite i will like a hungry ghost..Darn hungry de.. zzzz I also dunno hw to survive sia.. Dec got three ppl b'day & Xmas den plus tis coming weeks also got another ppl b'day.Wah! dun ask mi go work larhx.. I lazy sia.Been slacking alot recently..lolzAiya i will occupied myself wif things de larhx.Eh... I wanna to know why got ppl keep asking mi to take care ar?and the gal keep like so care for me, but i keep pushing her away! although she is my ganjie, but ... somehow we just knew each other and den she so called good to me..den make mi feel so uneasy sia..ee....u got motive de ma? if got better tell me, i will go FAR FAR AWAY FROM U!But somehow, wad she sae make mi feel like..Nt real de larhx, sae sae nia, i also can..=="But somehow i mux thanks her for her advice as i reaili dunno is my thinking correct ma.I can't wait to know my result!!arh!!!!!!!!Anyone wanna to go excerise? But dun go running outside larhx.. i cannot one..Unless i got the determine larhx if not i can't sia.Wah! Wad happen sia..Some of my frens like broke le larhx..zzzzZzzzz..Sian dao..=Shanice jie=Hehex , ytd u win , on that day u mux lose! lolz..Haix, wo hen tao ren yan hor?eh , remember that time i sae i saw one monkey i like it veri much mar?The above pic is the one lor..hahaxOkay.. Good nite guys!!I wanna to go slp le.. These few days been staying up too late le..So today i wanna to slp early...hahax..Dunno if i able to fall aslp ma..?Monkey?
Hang on there!
ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--
2:09 AM
Saturday, November 15, 2008Plz make ur life worthwhile....
Yo guys! Let's me share wif u all , Some of the things happened recently!Jus before the BBQ[12nov08]I get to know some of the person out there!erm, as i just knew them so i dunno is everything just acting or wadever..But somehow, the gal make mi feels that she treating mi better...AS in, maybe real frens or wad so ever..I can't confirm anything rite now!But I and her reaili can talk for so long on phone!She broke the record! I had nv talk to a person on phone till 9a.m! lolz..is like throughout the whole night!so yea..But somehw lines still had to be drawn!=-12NOV08-=Well, today BBQ was much more better den my own class one..Bread,ah bes,huiyi , ma lao shi and me meet at OCBC bank at 3p.m!lolz..Ma lao shi was like darn cute larhx..hahaxI have to entertained her on the bus, as huiyi seems emo somehw..I asked lots of question tat time..Cause dunno wad to sae ma.I reaili found myself irritating sia!Darn it!! huiyi ar.. See larhx ask u talk liao..U dun wan >< So when we reach there.. Wow! Quite a number of ppl reach liao.. My chinese teacher hu lao shi was darn good larhx.. She keep asking us to eat and even cook for us! Wow!so good sia, where can find sia? miss low also nv like tat.. I and huiyi at there also nth to do..So went to the entrance there and sat down.. More cooling~~~~ We chit-chat also.. Den huiying come and find us..Again we chit-chat... qiang also.. After that we had to go bak to the chalet le..Cause they calling us bak for BBQ. Although when i reach there, they did sae something unhappy words..But reaili de.. I dun expect much neither do i wanna to quarrel over a small thing. So that day i am in good mood bahx..SO PEACE YA!? IS always better to have one more frens than one enemies~~!~!~!~ FINALLY! I GOT AT LEAST EAT ABIT IN BBQ! So throughout the BBQ i was stick to huiyi! hahax.. After BBQ , I , huiyi and ah bes went for dinner? lolz.. hahax..Ah bes ar.. Still the same nv eat ==" Anyway!!! I would like to thanks everyone in the Chalet!!!Honesty i dun wan to leave early too..But..Bo Bian, had to pei huiyi..Hu lao shi, u make mi change my view toward u!! hahahx..-Huiying-
After happened so much things..
Things are gg to be the same yar?
ZShanice jieZ
Yup! mi too missing the days we had tgt!!
Hahax, when i can go ur house and u teach mi sci??
Thanks to u.. I now like sci veri much, but memorise things will drive mi crazy@@
anyway...
Don't forget next fri!!!! hahax..
Live for today , Hope for tml!! yar? =]
All the best for ur coming exam!!!!
Jia you ar!!
=]
+Chengchin+
Hey Hey!!! Why ur post put my name so big sia!!! u scare ppl dunno is mi ? lolz..hahax..
Yeahx larhx u're a bad gal, but nt worser den me! hahax..
Next next week den we come out okay?
Den at the same time can celebrate ur Olevel is over! lolz.. PS larhx i know i abit slow..
But nvm larhx..What reaili important is to have fun tgt! =]
Wow! next monday is Pom night le? eh? i forgot!!! I go ur blog den i know =="
Hope u will have fun over there!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Miss u sia!!! So long didn't see u liao , have u changed?????!!?!????!!??? Better not!!!
hahax.. I know now u mux be chionging for work! ==" Money face??!???
I'm glad that things are getting better...
Things happened and make mi learn...
I'm really happy to have u all as my FRENS!
Every single of my frens are UNREPLACEABLE
But some of them , reaili makes my life changes, and those I regards them as Precious!
And they are important in my life
as they are SPECIAL to me!
Thank you , my beloved friends!
Eh eh eh!! They are can't be name!! Cause is always kept inside my heart!
=]
xXMonkeyXxPlease smile!
ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--
2:22 AM
Friday, November 14, 2008XRealisedX
Above the monkey is brought by my sis! Love u much!! hahax..Sorri guys, these few days i dun feel like updating blog.Due to many reason, many things happened as well.To reaili sae wad things had happened~I guess its a long story.Things happened and make mi learn,REALISED, can sae things reaili pull mi down all the way.BUT NT TILL THE END!Just when things are no longer getting better ,I know i mux do something,I hesitated for veri long!I know, things are gg to be more worse if I'm Impatient.But i tell u if u step onto my tail ,I will bing till the end! i dun mind giving up my fking life.Anyway i dun even live for myself!So why should i bother so much? But i tell u , i live for ppl, People who are greatly important to me.I know some of u , mux be greatly hate me for living for the sake of others ,But i tell u , That makes my life worth it! That's ME!I THINK ALOT ALOT ALOT RECENTLYSAD, HAPPY, DOWN,MOODY....&I HATE MYSELF!
and so wad? Things wont change, but ppl do change, PPl like to assuming things , i do sometimes.
And wad i can sae is that i am too coward to face it all!
So i choose to run away!!! But i know i got to face it sooner or ltr.
Sometimes , is nt that xxxx dun care, is just that xxx is too important to me that i can't lost it.
Post by 11NOV
=Monkey=
Not till the last breathe of mine.
ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--
11:25 PM
Thursday, November 13, 2008I'm BaCk!!!
=?Guys?=
HEY ! I'm back!!
Wow! 7days never update! Reason is becoz, many things happened..
Then i dun feel like update my blog....
haix..
The following things i gg to post is gg to be DARN EMO! so if u all dun wish to read it..
Plz dun continue reading!!! Stop and leave anytime if u all wish to..
[-06 Nov 08-]Today or i can sae is these few days wasn't a day for me!Things turn out to be ugly, I..Can't change anything but to bear wif it.I tried to be funny, i tried to be stupid, fool , idiots,blur,silly!But nothing seems to be better..Today , wow! i had a bad temp, my mum make mi angry and i hate being disturb when I'm sleeping!er.. So far among my frens only sw kana once!! er..Darn sorri!!!Went out wif dongwen help him to print things. and went hm leHad a quarrel wif my mum whole day!From hm to causeway, causeway to hm!Is veri hard for mi to explain everything but wad i can sae is that,my big sis, 2nd sis and my mum all saying that I'm at fault! while i not!Blame mi for tis and that..The worst person is my mum..haiz..I'm trying to help my mum save $$, why tis intention of mine become the bad one!?And i always the bad person afterall..So i asked my mum " are u trying to sae that u are not in fault? and mean that I'm in fault??YES!Wow..I didn't expect that.. So be it..I didn't sae much..So when i tot everything is just tis bad enough..But is not!I brought something from power9, but it went lose after playing Basketball wif my sis and nephew.and he...had a gf and didn't even tell me!Why is he saying all the mushy words while he had a GF? I tot we can bear it for 1year plus le.. sure can bear it longer..But u had proven me wrong!I didn't affected much on tis, as i know, is impossible anymore!Everything seems to be FAKE!So why am i keep on taking it as REAL?Hw silly i am isn't it?So after finished playing basketball and badminton..I went online, and see if that guy gt replied me ma..=.=" Someone impose as me! and for no reason his frens scold mi WTF?haix.. I dun mind..Scold mi all u all wanna bahx..Anyway the one who at fault in the end will always be me!so why am i keep trying to sae IT IS NT MY FAULT?
Frens?
Guys, i believe even if i didn't exist in ur world, u all still can go on de!
I'm dun have any "big" deal abt myself..
Tis kind of frens i am, u can found it everywhere!
Enough guys, i know some of u been trying to be kind enough to an wei wo..
But i know wad i'm doing, Things are clearly be seen, Everything seems to be wrong!
even the "only" one left , proven mi wrong too!
MY family too! So since in tis world ,everyone is pointing finger on me!
And saying u are in wrong!
So tell me... Wad u will do? ignore? Pretending u nv heard? or, u will accept it even if ur "angel" sae u are not!?
I know for me, close frens dun last.. Dun even nid to mention best frens!
I dunno , maybe the problems lies on me!
I had too many weakness le.. Till it can't last!
Dun sae friendships le.. Even relationsip also can't!
And is always me be the bad person to end it!
I hate myself! i dun love myself at all!
I been thinking if just one day,
I leave everyone, living in a world only I and my family members exist ! Will it be betteR For u and me?
Maybe i should try it one day, without frens!
I dun nid to care that if one day i feel like crying and there is no one there for me for mi to lie on!
Cause i dun do that now or before!
I rather u all HATE me everything NOW! [all come together! den letting everyone HATE me slowly]
Tis post was type on 6NOV just tat i didn't post it!
There are more to come!
=Monkey=
?Half-Way-Dead?
ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--
11:55 PM
Thursday, November 6, 2008Don't give up !!!
+=5 Nov 08=+Today wake up at 3p.m ..lolzIt was darn late! hahaz.. and i didn't know.. Was like all the while been dreaming lots of things.Hahaz..Just like my mind bahx been thinking lots of things.So wake up and watch hotshot..lolz yea i was slow==" But I'm like that! When ppl told mi to watch i dun wan! But when ppl nv asked mi watch i wanna to watch liao.. ehx..Always so opposite from ppl bah.After watched le , go find my mum wif my bro den we go causeway.Ehx! Den actually wanted to change my plan de but too many ppl le so nv.On the way to the singlet shop i saw andy! Lolz! ehx.. Ps lehx andy i didn't hear that u called me, coz i was listening to music! =]Den i , my bro and my mum went to eat ramen..Eat le..Go action city and mini toon! Den walk walk ard.... Jiu buy bread for my following days.. hehex.Den i online le.Went jie'sblog, i was kinda shocked to read her blog!I know she moody when she told her frens on tag. She nv told me and i didn't realise that..
When i read the replied to her frens i was kinda sad through..
That day i was feeling down, i dunno wad i should do. i been thinking through whole night.
I reaili hope her frens could help her. As i can't.....
Why i can't rite?
She been veri busy recently , she nv told me abt it & I nt always wif her/see her.
But i believe she can get through tis time!As long as she dun give up!!!
Jia you jie! Mei mei hui mo mo de zhi chi ni de! =] =Ah bes=Bes.. I already trying my best to help u le..If u reaili still xiang bu kai .. sorri den i can't help u anymore le.If u reaili think die will solve everything..Den i reaili had nothing to sae.If u reaili think that "we" wont be sad anymore.. Den u're WRONG!I had walked pass tis before.. I know the feeling of being the person who left behind.TREASURE UR LIFE ALL U COULD! wad i had to sae i already said le... I dun wish to repeat myself again. Hope u reaili think abt it..=Chengchin=Remember u told mi before that i, huiyi had our new "frens" and is like u been left alone?Know why i still remember tis? Coz i wanna to tell u that I never forgotten u! And had nv even tot of leaving u alone.. BECOZ i treasure the friendship i had wif u!! -Guys-All my dearest frens! I may nv mention any of u all in my post! But that's doesn't mean i have forgotten any of u!!! Sometimes things doesn't have to sae clearly ...As long as i know in my heart can le.. Who i reaili treasure i believe if u all reaili go see u will know.But nv assume anything!!!! Ask the person if u had any doubts! I dun wish to have any misunderstanding wif any of u all!! Understand mar? !!! ?? AND TC!!! =]
[=Monkey=]
Smile even when things aren't seems rite..
ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--
12:14 AM
Wednesday, November 5, 2008Time passed......
5 NOV @ 08 YO EVERYONE!Eh? Surprise!? I'm STILL AWAKE! lallalalallalaa... Coz i ytd slp almost the Whole day! Cool yar?(lame rite? ==)Den after i wake up go out wif my sis..Ytd had a Conversation wif him and dw! lolz..He sae one of the main char like me ==" den called her as my name! lolz!But the main char was super lousy, Coz he keep making "me" die!Den aiya, he still the same but only words getting lesser which is GOOD! hahazDen dw was like so quiet larhx..Unlike him~~ Half way talked on phone half way chatting on msn..Wow! we chat till almost 2hrs le..hahazIt had been a long time ever since i had him talked so long le.But two person gang up and bully me><but i wasn't angry or wad! coz got things to sae rather den dun have ar..So nvm larhx.. Is ok nar..WOW! A day had passed! and yar! A new day begins~~Sometimes i reaili hope i can have u once again!
The feeling of beening care, love , dotes & everything make mi feel like it.
But too bad i know even u give me the chance to let mi have once more.
I wont able to have it.
I can't let her Or u down once again!
你们知道吗？那种想在一起又不可以在一起的滋味是有多么的难受吗？
So i know i can't make any chooses therefore 我只好安慰自己，未来多的是机会。
In that case i wont hurt anyone! I wont disappointed anyone! Rite?
=Monkey trying to be alive!=
4:59 AM
Smile~Be Proud as u all are Appearing on my blog!
Eh? Alamak..Actually My name Wasn't appear on there!
Fyra was musfirah nicknames~ (Now den i know)=="
My goodness! My mickey mouse hand had only 3finger?
No Violence Ar~ 
A Only photo taken by four of us! 
Life is so bored