Jus wanna to hold on to u.. When nothing mattered~

✖I don't care what life will be in future!_____I jus wanna to hold u TIGHT close to me!_____✖

Tuesday, September 30, 2008Recalled?

Today
while bathing...
I suddenly remember that day when jie sae " white lies"
That day , sat 27sept 08
I asked her whether wad things she likes to eat in mac?
Coz i wanted to buy for her..
Den i asked wad thing normally u eat in mac?
she sae " nothing"
I asked again
u go mac u nv eat things de?
u sure?
sure?
really mar?
sure or not?
I asked too many times that she find mi irritating..
after asking so many times..
she sae i noisy ( in a veri serious manner)
And i know she 'Lie" to me..
coz.she dun wan mi to treat her...
I know , i know.. But i was waiting her to admit when i ask 'u sure'??
But sadly, she didn't ...she even sae mi noisy(in a serious tone/look)
Wah! My tears nearly drop!
Cause i didn't expect her to lie to me..although is white lie..
but still.... haix..
I'm not angry!!!
I just feel quite sad...

* i know is over! What the use of keep saying it? yeah.. I know.. hehex..
let's forget abt it....wad matters is present NOW! ^-^ *

Just now,
Went out and makan(alone)
Wow! I order quite alot..
Den in the end can't finished =.="
zzz...Waste food hor? lolz..
Then after that went to buy cleaner...
My house ard there..nv sell sia..
Have to go until northpoint there and buy...=.="

Before i go out..
Jie told mi abt the money things that are given to her ...
A notice was send to her through email...
Ok if i were her i wont care bahx..
Even the money is free..
I also dun wan..
1st , the person is unrelated to me
2nd, is nt earn by me..
3nd, nothing in tis world is free .. if u are unrelated to me and give mi money..
I will think that u had a motive for doing that....
so yeahx..Jie ar..
Aiyo , already gave them the information..Lets wait lor..
I don't even know should we trust or not..
Starting i tot the notice is through mail(letter) one..
At least can be trusted more..
But when she told mi is through internet one..
My percentage of trusting straight away drop from 60% to 20% or worst only 10%
Cause wad i know is that..Internet 1 cannot be trusted de..
They everytime gu yi sae until like veri real..
But turned up to be FAKE!
jie dun worry ok?
No matter wad happened!
We will face it together!! ^^
Anyway i had send MSN abt tis...
Hopefully they will reply mi and we shall see hw bahx...
Let's pray that it is real that they gave jie the $$$

Wow! No time to study liao..opps!!

sign off-
pingz..

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3:03 PM

Monday, September 29, 2008Sky is falling soon!

CP $$$$$$!!!!

For more information... Plz contact me at 999 !!! Remember to tell them the code..
The code is ... ' Plz tell them ur name and tell them that u are siao! '
Less than 10 mins! A 'special car' will fetch u..Just go in and then! U will ...
Found urself in the ' heaven! of gold!!!! ' =]

Omg! Cp darn lame shit!!
wei! plz ar...
Don't badmouth of me alright? u @#!@$#@$ ...

- ' N' level period -

My goodness! Chewping had lose her sense!
Been act like an idiots..
Talking to herself all that..
Been angry over small matters!

wei! Stop it!
I dun lose my sense ok?
I veri awake right now! every minutes and seconds!
I dun angry over SMALL Thing!
IS a BIG thing! Alright!!!!

Hey guys..
Dun think i nt worried abt my study/result hor!
I may act as if i not!
But actually i am!
Today i was darn blur!!
Was late for chem paper today!
and...everyone start doing and i still hesitating whether can i start or not!
I was darn stupid and blur ( i know! ) (=.=)

Let's dun talks abt the paper today...
Coz i scare i will emo !!
><
U knoe wad..
Sw today tell mi ...
that day after recess , she go ask huiying come to my class!
coz that time we was just joking!
we are saying where is huiying sia..
We wan to eeeeee... her!
den i in a joke manner go tell sw that ' ask huiying to come lehx '
so that we can say eeee.....
SW reaili go ask huiying to come!!
Den wee teng/poh li asked who sae one..
Den sw sae is me.. =.="
well, i found that sw like to baoto to them sia..
Tat time sebas sae that phrase ' ur father die we also haven die "
when huiying ask her , she go tell her that is sebas sae one.. wa!!
I'm not afriad of letting them to know but! dun nid to go tell them de rite...
Let them guess ma! hahax.. like that more fun!! lolx..
She let mi feels that i can't trust her sia...
In fact i lose all the hope in her le.. She can pass or not..... Is all up to her!

Hor hor, chewping become bad le ar...
Sae bad things abt other ppl!! (hehex)
actually i veri peace one! but just sick and tired of them!!!
I treat u like my close frens!
tis is hw u betray mi behind my back???
U think saying those excuses will help mar?
U and her also the same things!
Promise mi le..Yet break promise..
u think i will like mar? Been trying so hard to help u..
Yet u did tis to me.. Don't sae I'm ur wad so ever!
Sae only mar...I also can...
Scold u , u will listen mar? Dun talk bullshit infront of me larhx....
How u treat me.. U ownself should know clearly!!!
Dun act as if u are veri mature! if u reaili are.....
u shouldn't have those thinking at all!

-I tot wad i did for the past was wrong..
So i tried to amend it..By getting close to u again!
Treating and helping u all i can...
YEt...
I was all wrong!
Thanks for proving me that wad i had done went down to drain!!
Thanks for proving mi that i was right in the past!!
Although wad i did in the past was nt totally right..
But at least.. ppl wont break my promise...
I tot u will wake up... and i tot nothing is too late...
But..
U HAD PROVED IT ALL WRONG!!
I didn't blame u infact I..
Thanks U so much! For letting mi know!

=Yes, different ppl have different view... Sorry for nt being the one who tried
to understand u right now ... But i guess.. That's enough!
Had been the one who step into ur shoes
and think abt hw u think long ago.. Guess, is ur turn now ,
putting urself into my shoes and think
how i feel ... =

* Am I thinking the correct way? Izzit some misunderstanding?
Am i trying nt being considerate towards others?Was i mean? Will i regret after wad
I had said? Will i hurt the person? and ect...
Many ppl sae i should love myself..
Sorry i dun like to.. Coz when i am! I'm am being inconsiderate..
Doing things just for my sake!So to prevent that from happening.. I hate myself alot!!*

-Guys I had learn hw to accept other ppl comments towards me!
In fact when they told me.. I was even more glad and thanks them !! (Kinda shocked?)
Of coz dun sae something which I nt like that..
So plz.. be more true and honesty to me when u dun like me..
well, i will change if it is relvant.... -

-Btw u all know who i refering abt mar?
So
- Dunno? guess larh! ^^
-Jie should know bahx.. hahax... -
-Mian bao wan to know mar? Come and ask mi!! ^-^ -

-end off-
Thanks for all the motivation and wishes!! -
^-^ I will try my best de!
But whether e result will be good or not.. I dunno wor ><

-Remember to call my bank for more information!! -hahax...
=]

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6:04 PM

Thursday, September 25, 2008Enough of tis! Alright?

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11:48 PM

Wednesday, September 24, 2008Tired~

-Finally-
Finally one day nv go to sch and stay for night/afternoon classes le..
but hor, tis time round i went hm darn late ...
I today reach hm ard 10plus! lolz..
Went to sw house and study...
Den when i heard kor(tyco) teaching sw chem..
I was laughing inside my heart..darn funny larhx..
Kor forgot most of the chem le.. lol...
But also cannot blame him, after several months or maybe years..
He might forgot le ma..so yeahx ^^
But his math good...
So long nv saw him le..like 1 year le? almost larhx..
Then he changed abit lolz..
Last time i and him nothing to sae one when we met..
But now ok larhx...talk more than last time le bahx.. ^^

Before gg to sw house , i go jie house 1st.. Pass her maid the bubble tea den go off liao..
I see her maid run towards jie door , was like darn cute larhx..
No idea why her maid dun wan to slowly walks towards jie room... hahax...

School!
-Porm night-
Wah.. $65!!!
zzz....so ex sia...
I'm nt gg means no gg larhz..
I can be veri good and can be veri stubborn at times too.. So plz dun force mi to go..
Whereby i DUN LIKE!
Well, let mi make things clear..
I do not define porm night as ex..but!
i also dun like to wear until like wad larhx...
Den so many ppl there..
(why can't i go there for frens sake?)
Well, sometimes i reaili feels veri tired sia..
Do tis for frens sake do that for frens sake...
Can't tis time , tis prom night to be 'except?'
I know someone was unhappy becoz no one accompany ..
But well, i reaili dun like to go there..
Mean dun like! alright??

-D&T-
Today mr yeo talks abt getting tips from teachers before the exam..
He found out that... Many students depend on teacher's tips alot...
For example..
Just before exam , students went up to their teachers and take notes..
And that it! Study exam through notes!
So mr yeo , we shouldn't do that!
We have to read textbook one!
Can't always depend on teachers notes...
-Well, for me..That's true! Don't depend on teachers notes! - Depend on ourself! -

-To be continue-
darn tired now.. !! ^^ Good nite~~~

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10:44 PM

Monday, September 22, 2008

-22 sept! -

zz....zzz.
Today i wake up late !!
6.45a.m den wake up!
Power rite?
zzzz.z..zz.z.z..z.z.z.z.z.z.z.z.z.z

Today , huiyi nv come to sch..coz overslept..
My goodness! That pervert qi yi keep looking at mi for the past few days!
Today i keep on asking him why...
Aiya dun need to ask u all also know...Hor mian bao..
well, for those who dunno.. That idiots qi yi like me.. =.="
BUT let mi make things clear with everyone !
I Ng chewping DON"T LIKE DONG WEN or QIYI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So plz ar..
Stop saying i like them alright? =.="

-Night class/afternoon class-
Wah! We kana been compliant by other ppl AGAIN!
Thz to JJ and mian bao! Both laugh darn loud..
Ppl from other the library bench there can heard their laugh from one of the classroom!
Power rite?? hahax...
In the end everyone was ps larhx..Dun wan to walk pass the ppl outside the library..
But sebas veri thick skin go walk pass them..
Den when we walk to 2nd floor..We make noise again..
Laugher again! lolz... I think those other ppl heard liao..Sure du lan us de.. lolz..

Ytd actually wan to study at hm one... come back online msn..
Den...kana shoot by 'Someone' =.="
ehx.. is 2 against 1 !! so yeahx..
I emo that time sia.
Coz talk to them nv reply mi one..Guess they are 'Bz' bahx...
After msn.. i go bath liao .. den wan to study half way i went to slp! wth! can't tahan..
Den 3a.m wakeup wan to study one.. but tired larhx.. so went to slp again lor..

= 23 SEPT! =
As usual , slp in class during math lesson! ^-^
wah! two source based sia.. I hate it.. Dun wan to do..
I lazy to do larhx..always source-based question one..see liao also will scared..
Si qi yi , touch my hand again! ee.... yucks~! I think i mux wash my hands many
times to clear all the gems larhx...

-Night / afternoon classes-
Right after Mdm k of going through the worksheet..
I actually wanted to go hm one..
But aiya..since is gg to reach 5.30p.m le.. so wait for ms chong to go through
wif us abt the chem things...
Poor mian bao sia..kana shoot by them..See i so good..nv sae anything..hahax!
She go through the SALT things..wah! i also forgot some of it liao..zzz
Haven go memories them.. Tonight i will go memorise all bahx...
Hopefully can remember =)
I think hor, next time i mux take a nap 1st..like 10mins like that..before i continue..
If not i sure don't have jing shen de lor...
Today in library , suddenly recieve huiying msg sia..
She sae ' I hv go night class wif them'
Veri obvious larhx the 'Them' refering to pohli they all..
So i replied.. ' Don't have to tell mi in future bahx' Actually dun wan to put a 'Bahx'
Behind de , but well , if dun have include i sound mean larhx... '
See tis is call.. Zuo ren bu yao tai jue bahx...
Today i told huiyi abt wad the conversation abt when i confort wif huiying..
huiyi also sae is excuse larhx..Den she sae if i were her she sure will veri angry when
she heard huiying sae that..
Well, bo biao ar, i was darn good mood that day.. Thz to jie ..hahax...
Zzz... i nv talk to huiying nowadays le...She also nv talk to me..
So why mux i talk to her sia..

*these few days.. hanging out wif JJ , pohling their groups..
Erm well , alot of laugher in there.. But sometimes is kinda lame when sebas sae
Lame things..! lolz... Other than that is ok larhx... *

-JJ-
kor, i dunno hw to read ur handwriting sia... =.="
Ur blog link larhx... u mux write clearly tml ar...

Sign off-
Should i do source-based 1st or study chem ar?
zzz...Dun care source-based 1st... Tml den man man explain to miss low bahx..hahax

Hehex...
=)
-Pingz-

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8:14 PM

Sunday, September 21, 2008OMG!

My goodness!
I was on sale! 99billions! (exclusive of discount)
Where to buy mi?
Can go to shanice blogspot.. There got sell me..
Plz think carefully when u buy me ar.. hahax..
Buy me , might turn out to be a disaster!! (hahahax!!)

I was in a good mood today..
Hahax...
Gaining confidence bit by bit..
Next week is the last week for me & my frens who takes 'N' level !
Jia you everyone!!!

* Will online next week after 9p.m*

-PEACE YAR everyone?? -
Plz, remain peace!!!! no fight fight or quarrel ar...
Ltr i cut off ur hands and zip ur mouth den u know! hahahax...

- Attention!!-
PLZ visit tis blog
http://sagaciousshopping.blogspot.com
Well, is a shopping blog , opened up by my jie(shanice) & a few of her frens...
btw, tis blog is under? construction? lolz!
well, u still can go in and see see... ^^
-Die Die Must Buy ar -
even if u die also MUX buy, i will dip out ur grave and make u buy!!

(Is Tis called Threatened ? YES it is! hahax)

*No offence ar.. hehex.. *

Hey hey!
I'm gg to buy 1st before anyone does!! hahax... Be the 1st customer!! =p

-Sign off-
Eye closing- ZzzzzZzzzz

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9:39 PM

Saturday, September 20, 2008U know?!

Sorri guys, i put pw coz... I can't trust 'Someone' le
I now was in a confused state... so erm... yeahx
Haix..I keep asking myself, Why things turned up this way?
I can choose to let go , but in the end i chosen the hard way...

I been emo these few days..
Sorri guys , i dunno my 'Moody' face is = to showing attitude..
So many things had happened larhx..
ZZzzzZzz..Honestly , i can't concentrated on my studies..
I keep on fallen aslp when i chatting in msn , in class ..
I was darn tired...
I know , i shouldn't go night/afternoon class everyday..
But that's the only way i can study..
Maybe i should change the location bahx..
I know by gg there everyday i sure will physically break down one..
But haix....

-Huiying things settle le -
Thz jie for accompany to go talk to her.. ^^
I'm reaili nt fierce when i talked to huiying that time... Coz got jie ard mar... Dunno lehx, just can't angry lehx... hahax.. Erm, izzit a good things? maybe bahx..

Dun ask mi , hw izzit? Coz i dun even know the conclusion after talking to her..
Seems like useless larhx...I dun even know wad i want!
End friendships? Izzit too harsh?
While talking to her, i .. Keep asking myself, and telling myself..
Tis is just a small things why wan to make it so difficult for both of us?
Okay..Wadever it is..SHe keep giving excuses larhx...
-Plz ar, ppl , white lies only meant that u lie for that ppl sake nt from urs! So
plz use it wisely! -

-Night classes-
Hahax.. Nowadays, my study group got ,
Bread, kor , sebast , wenqiang, andy and MI!
quite a fun group , we chit-chat alot! lolx..
But always kana scoled by teachers.. Coz we are too noisy..lolz..
But at that moment...We reaili shared our thoughts alot..
I reaili liked it when we are honest to each other that time...
That's e way man! Beening honest to one another!

*10days away!*
Time is running out!!!
I keep reprimand myself!
Why i did tis , why i do that..
Just keep scolding myself larhx...
Haix..

U know , whenever i cycle..
I will imagine wad if a car knocked down on me?
How will i react?
u know .. All kinds of things i imagine..Especially, when it is related to death one..
Maybe....
i can't wait to die bahx..
Can't wait to admitted to hospital ..
Can't wait to end everything!

Know , wad is tis called?

TIs is called ' Run away ' from things!

Nothing much to sae also..
Just feels veri tired recently..

TakeCare everyone!!

-So far only three ppl know my pw! hahax...-
>grace
>jie
>bread!!
hahax...Nt bad ar...Top three leh! ehx! no prize lehx..
Got one prize larhx..
Lovez from mi !!
WAN?? hahax..

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9:53 PM

Tuesday, September 16, 2008I'm nt myself~

^Sick^

Sign~

sad!

Cry*

Mixture of sad & confuse~~

1st of all, Congrats jie for getting a flying colours result!!!

I was so surprise when jie suddenly sms while I'm Doing my math paper!
lolx...Hahax..After knowing jie getting flying colours result! Was veri happy for her! ^^

-Today was horrible , terrible but was happy for jie -
Haix..
Haix...
Haix....
Today i was sick! down wif flu , sore throat , cough! (is izzit veri serious? Does it reaili matters?)
I can't able to concentrate at all when during lesson..
Is like wasn't myself u see...
After recess, horrible things had happened..
I had a quarrel wif one of my classmate , he is veri bad temper..
And i was busying doing my math at class, so he pass the message to us to go to geo room..
He keep repeating and repeating the same sentence again and again, i didn't know he was
Talking to mi as he was standing behind me , and there's also a group of frens sitting there..
So i starting to get frustrated as 1stly , he keep repeating e same sentence , 2nd i wasn't
feeling so well , So i shouted to him that he was veri noisy...
He started to get angry all that..
I was like..WTH larhx..
he said something den went out to find miss low, he sae that we don't believe wad he said..
The problem is we NV said that! so he assumed we are!
den miss low come up and told us to go down..
Well , anyway i and huiyi was abt to go down too...
Go down liao.. he show mi attitude.. I didn't sae or do anything..till he started to sae mi again..
I reaili can't tolerated anymore , so i went up to him and confort him..
He everytime nt happy wan to wrack ppl liao..
Wrack ppl veri proud and happy izzit? always know hw to use violence to solve things..
he shouted at mi, ok darn loud larhx!
Miss low was behind mi, she sae enough le , so i went into e geo room lor..
Darn fark up larhx..
Huiyi sae just now my yu xi talking to him was quite strong!
WTH! If anyone was mi , i see if u all will react e same way as i do or not..
Huiyi go ask him whether is he alright or not ( ok larhx, i wasn't angry abt tis )
But i was angry e way he sae ...
He sae, he tell mi ,did i angry him or not..
I was laughing in my heart , u know why?
Talking to mi behind my back? How would i know he was talking to mi whereby he nv even
call my name! Don't u all think is so funny? Plz larhx, my bak dun have a pair of eye , how to see?
Wadever it is, when i was in geo room, miss low wants to talk to me..
She asked mi nt to take it to heart..all this and that..
saying he is like that de..
Miss low was concern abt me..that why she sae that..
WEll , i understand bahx..When in the staff room , she actually asked mi why i didn't go hm
since I'm sick, well , i forgot wad i replied her le..lolx
Not only did miss low sae that, miss chee and mrs lim also ask mi go hm..
Lol!
WEll, dun worri bahx, as long as i didn't collapse or admitted to hospital is still fine!
After that , i went bak to geo room le lor, he was there , well , wadever care less bahx..

-Night class-
Huiying-
U told mi u are nt coming? Well, in the end u sae u didn't accompany mi ?
Dun worri u wan wif them , i fine wif that..
Dont wan to study wif mi? Also fine wif that..
Studying wif mi darn bored larhx, i know that, but that's called study!

-Mrs lim-
Huh? She teach mi math darn good larhx, all got short cut one! lolx!
easlier! Den we chit-chat also..btw she was one of my favourite teacher! lolx!
den in the staff room saw miss chee, she sae i didn't take care of myself! ( er..Nt true!) hahax
Both teachers wanted mi to go hm instead of still staying till 8p.m well, i insist bahx..
Coz i can't study at hm!
Huiying , pohli , pat & more are in the history room ..Well, i also study in history room
but i didn't sat wif them bahx.. I rather be alone !
I fall aslp! lolx! Darn tired ..
Haix.. i wasn't myself today ..
I feel i did so many mistake! Everything wasn't smoothly today ..
Maybe just one day , everyone will just hate mi for my attitude bahx..
Ye hao bahx.. I will just shut myself away from u all since u all can't tolerate my attitude..
So wad e point of holding this friendship? If u all could understand hw i feel rite now ,
I think tis friendship is worth it! But if u all don't ,den too bad bahx..Wad i had did was wasted..

--I very tired of holding bak my temper and give in , maybe i wasn't the fren that suit u all &
wasn't e fren u all wants...Well, is ok to me, just tell mi that and i will walk away from u..--
Anyway i used to be alone , now study and sleeping will help mi to let the time pass faster..

Jie , am i that bad?
am i nt good enough?
Did i did wrong?
am i so tao ren yan?

But i think i am...
'Smile' well , the above question is veri hard for u to ans bahx,
i know , well, so be it bahx.. I know e ans from myself le..

Everyone do take care ok ? Sorri for my bad temper & mood..

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8:55 PM

Monday, September 15, 2008z_NeverDies_z

-today , e moon darn bright! Tis image wasn't taken by me..instead i took it from web..
As i can't take e the pic of the moon! u all should know why cannot ar..-

*-Moon Cake Festival -*
Tis year was such a different day !
Why?
Firstly, I went to jie house to study.(first time during tis day)
secondly, I celebrates with , huiying, jie and dong wen on that day!
Well, wad abt chengchin , huiyi & sw?
I totally have no idea, no one called mi and ask mi abt tis, so I assumed they are very busy
especially chengchin , den huiyi i scare is too last min , ltr she dun like it..
Sw ar.. Aiya tis pig! Slp slp slp...Ask her come study , she sleeping! Nice one ar.. Today nv come
to sch also! Wad e... Wadever larhx..I'm getting tired of it..She wan to study at hm..So be it!
Should i give her a morning call every single daY?? Should i? haix..

I tell u all ar..
I went to buy bomb bag ! hahax!
Went to scare them !!
WEll, i was successful in doing that.. (Clap plz! thank you thank you!) lolx!
But tis only apply to jie and huiying..As for dong wen, he used to those explorsion sound liao
So to him, is no effect one!
1st time i using letters to make out names! lolx! hehex...
But was darn small and clam..zzz = to nt successful..
Well, will improve on that next time when i do that again...

~15sept08~
Today was a ...normal day bahx..
Just get a little pissed off by other things...Mood wasn't tat good also..
WEll, i went for afternoon and night class..
Doing bio notes for those hours! lolx..
HUIYING PS mi!
si huiying, ps mi last min & go accompany poh Li!
Hey! Wad abt mi huh? Just dump mi aside huh? Well, ok! I'm gg to i gg to used to it!
Alright? I'm gg to used to been dump away by others..Better still, just dump mi into
Darkness!
Wadever larhx, u also care less, den i still care 4 wad sia..
Anyway , i still able to do even if I'm alone! I reaili dun mind beening alone de..
So if ur frens reaili need accompany by u , go and accompany them bahx...
Don't worri i can study on my own de... Anyway today got pohling wif mi study tgt..So yeah..
Plus got chengchin there also..See I'm nt alone..lolx..

-That day didn't go see doctor..Maybe others day bahx...Seems like My hand and leg will
Get itch easily -

-Erm, nothing more to sae le..Bye! -

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8:28 PM

Friday, September 12, 2008How am i suppose to sae?

Having so much to sae and yet...
I dunno where should i start ...
Basically ,
today my legs and hand had been horribly bite by mosqu or other kind of insects?
I totally have no idea.. IS darn itch lor ~
Ltr gg to apply medicine on my both hands and leg...
I'm gg to see doctor tml ..^^ ( waste money rite? zzzz...)
haix..my leg blue-black had been at there since on monday stil haven recovered yet..
(so far only huiying saw it..wow! hahax..)
ltr mux rub it... and bites the bullet(ran zhe tong)...

Today went for night classes...
My goodness! the library had turn upside down by some of the express students...
They went to took out a tin of biscuit which were kept by the librarian teacher....
They took it out and eat..(wow! power sia)
The 'unreasonable' librarian teacher wasn't ard when we having night classes in the library ..
and yet the library was in a mess! hahax...nice one!
I think when the librarian teacher come bak on monday sure will qi si de! hahax...
I studied most in bio..I still dun understand why !
I just simply don't gets wad the bio means!
Darn it! Haix...why am i so stupid?

Huiying had barked some cup cakes ! Taste nice sia..hahax..
After studied in library for a few hours...
I and my frens went to history to look for mrs lim(D&T teacher)
SHe taught us math..lolx hahax..
We had chit-chat over there...
My brain was shutting down..I can't carry on with study le...zzz...
haix...
USeless brain!
After 8 , we had to leave the sch..
Actually plan to study in the mac de but too many ppl den nv study in the end..
zzzz...ye hao bahx...anyway my brain can't absorb anymore le..

> Iman , veri de wad sia.. He got express frens so wad big deal sia? He knows those things
We dunno so? Got express students teach him so?
I dunno e things he sae like' anabolic catabolic --> constructive metabolism , destructive metabolism ' So wad big deal huh?
I know my bio suck to core larhx..
Don't need like tat rite?? I hate myself larhx! <
Actually i wasn't angry abt iman..in facts i just hate and angry abt myself...haix..

-Slients is e Best?-

ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--

9:59 PM

Thursday, September 11, 2008Actions tell most of the things!

Sometimes i wonder..
Should i put a password in my blog?
Should i kept myself away from ppl?
I dunno..Just feel useless in some ways..

When i know...
-There's someone better den me.. and I'm just nothing...
- u dun nid mi anymore ...
- I can't do anything abt it..

Don't worri , i will walk away from u...
Don't be surprise that i hardy talk to u one day...
I guess u will know why...

Plz forgive me..
- for being so useless as i can't help in any ways...
- when u need someone to be there , i can't be e one....
- for not being a person u wish to have as a frens.

+ Not i am like that... I do everything depends on the circumference... U understand? +

Please tell mi..
Why is god ' yi ci you yi ci de shua wo? '

I jus...Jus....wanted to be a person u all hope to have as a frens..
But i can't do it...
No matter how hard i tried...

-I'm nt gg to online tml so dun bother to wait for mi to online or wad...
Remember I'm just nobody ok! -

# My goodness! Why am i so negative today! ??? Haix...I'm sorri if i had spoil any of u all
mood! I...I... Just simply hate myself! #
Can do mi a favour?
IS...
I dun need any comfort for u all just becoz i was so negative today , i don't need!
I believe that u all had enough for today! So don't have to care abt me alright?
Solve all the problems u all had now, i dun wish to add on to ur burden!
Just let mi be..I will be fine afterwards! *TMl will be better day! *
Tml i nt gg to online..So tc guys~!~!

[= No matter wad happened! Remember, I'll always be there for u all if u want me to!,
no matter hw far is e distance between us! =]
*crying in slients*

ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--

10:03 PM

Wednesday, September 10, 2008Getting my life better~~

Let's start everything wif a.....

Today was a suay day for me?
yeahx! But why i still can smile?
Coz i can smile! lolx!
I was darn tired these few days..Nt becoz of studies but dunno becoz of wad..
I just can get tired easily!

Wad are the events that so suay for me today?

My prelim D&T just passed! and overall i only got A2 (my goodness)
Among frens got friendship problems.
My math wasn't that good! I only got B3(=.=")
huiying didn't accompany me for night class( i dun mind actually ^^)
2nd time i go night class le, i was kana chased out by security! (reason? Attire lor)
wait for chengchin for 1 hours plus..yet she had went hm le..
I go chong pang see pants, try le , i dun like..wad the...
Call angelina(jie), she hang my phone 3 times! dunno why leh

Wow! 8 ' suay' things happened in just a day and yet i can still laugh and smile ar..
Power sia..hor..hahax

-today-
So where do i go when i kana chased out ? well, i go library de nearby block and study!
Study for half an hour and then go chong pang le..
On the way , i pass by my pri sch!
I saw those childrens darn cute lor!
Its remind mi abt my childhood when i see them singing ( nation anthem)
I stand there..And observed!
My memories for childhood got good and bad...
That moments i didn't recalled my bad moments for friendship cause i hardy got
Friendship problems when i was in pri sch cause i used to alone..
i wait and wait...till everyone leave le..so i went to jie and angelina jie block there...
I called angelina jie but no one ans and she hang up my phone! ><
go there le..i go chong pang walk walk and then go bak to sch..
on the way saw edwin..lolx! had a chat wif him and den go to sch le..
Go bak to sch gt two reason one is treat the secuity drinks and wait for chengchin..
I kept waiting and waiting..Almost all the express had left! but where chengchin?
So i waited , werid lehx...even most of the teachers had left where she?
Nvm, i waited and waited...at the same time talk to the secuity..
Everyone had left ! so i go hm le lor... but before i leave i did sms chengchin, den is when
i know she had reach hm le...
WAdever it is.. is my fault nt letting her to know i waiting for her..lolx

-Sian i dun wan to post le ... -
Bye! ^^

ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--

9:12 PM

Tuesday, September 9, 2008A better day had came...

See , i knew it! Today was a better day!
But i always remind myself that ' Tml will be a better day! '

I got a few of my surrounding ppl having love relationship problems..
Well, I'm nt an love expert !
So what i can sae is so limited!
I reaili tried my best to convince , an wei , trying to make u all feel better..
But after all is U e one gg to make the decision.
But my hearts is reaili veri pain to see u all feeling so down becoz of love relationship..
Numerous of tears falling down ur eyes,
reaili makes mi feel so sad too..
But i know , i can't do anything abt it..
Hopefully by saying those an wei words will help u all eventually....
I'm lucky , i wasn't fall in love wif anyone and do not have to face any love relationship problems..
Well, is nv easy to give up..But just keep trying...
There's no harm trying! Right?
Remember this ' tml will be a better day! '
And if just happen that tml is a worsen day .. Don't give up!
Just bear in mind that tml will be a better day!!

* what is urs will be urs! just wait for the right time and right person to appear alright?!*
*no point rushing for a love relationship and eager to solve it,
stay calm and think again in a peaceful mind*
-chuan dao qiao toe , zi ran chi- understand?

^ Today ^
Today i got bak my bio full result , means overall result...
I drop my marks by 5 marks!!! Omg!
5 marks can determine whether i got a A1 or A2 , A or B! my goodness!
Ok wadever it is...I got tis marks! which mean i got to work extra hard?!
As for chem , i didn't got bak my MCQ result but! our teacher went through the MCQ questions...As for mi , i will write my ans in the question paper 1st before shaped on the otask paper...
Well, i only managed to get 18/20 ... =(
I added up all my marks ...
Chem i got 45.5 / 50
Bio 35/50
Rough combined was 80.5 / 100 !
Erm... compared to mid-year my marks are constantly...lolx
WEll, I'm glad that is constantly but honesty , if tis time chem wasn't easy i think i wont be able to remain my marks constantly..
If u think my sci was the best in my class! U're wrong! There other ppl do better den me!
Haix.. I was far behind!

Today ..accompany huiying to go woodlands..and when in the bus i just able to sit down..
My leg was kana knock on the seat!
Well, i tot was nothing! But is nt! It turn blue-black! like that also blue-black?
zzz...Li hai sia..
eeee...my leg so ugly!! but at the same time is painful...lolx aiya small case!
Is nothing big deal! ^^
after we walk walk le...we go makan wif yanying and pat..
After that go hm and change and prepared to go to night class...

1st of all ,
Tis year night class wasn't for those students in 4 (NA)
One word to describe it is ' BIASED!' against us!
Why do i sae so?
the teachers thinks that the 4NA students have enough practice..
But i can sae that is excuses!
They are just simply biased ok!
Last year , every graduate classes will have night class why tis year dun have for 4(NA)?
Simply is becoz they have given up on 4NA, They think that we can't make it to sec 5!
And they have choosen a route for us to take which is higher nitec or ITE!
I'm nt saying higher nitec or ITE are nt good , but at least give us some hope!
Not everyone will gg there .. and some of us still hope to go up to sec 5!
So plz don't declared us 'death sentence!'
wadever ~~ i know some of the teachers aren't biased! Just like miss low ,
mdm k, miss chee and ect... they are truely treated everyone equally!!!
zz..wadever it is i will still gg for night classes!! ^^
No teacher help mi also nvm , as long i can study on my own in sch can le..
I like to study at sch ! but nt at hm! i dunno why..=)
Today during the night classes...
Miss tay was at another class for express students..
But she also got come to us and asked if we had any question..
one of my frens ask miss tay...
Something to do with the protein synthesis de.. Well, i forgot wad is tis ...
So i asked miss tay what it is that...
she explain..And i told her that i hardly saw tis word...
Den she sae no wonder?
i was puzzle why she sae that..
after that she sae coz i'm NOT BIO students!that's why i dunno wad is protein synthesis..
My goodness! I'm nt a bio students!!? hahax!!
I keep laughing sia..
den huiying and some of my frens told her that i am! lolx!
She was darn ps !
wow! jie now den i know I'm nt a bio students ar...So jie are u gg to teach mi physic?
hahax!!!!!
After all, miss tay was a nice and good teacher!
^^

-To be continued-
I was darn tired today..
Been fallen aslp in the bus , class ! lolx!
zzzz.z.z.z.z..z.z.z..z.z.z.z.z..z.z.z.z
Good nite!! ^^

ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--

9:52 PM