I don't care what life will be in future!_____I jus wanna to hold u TIGHT close to me!_____


Thursday, April 30, 2009
Plz... Don't ask mi why !Dun tell mi wad!!!
Many many things...
for mi to sae?

So many things that
happened to me


I...

reaili dun wish that to happen!!
But why?
Why?
i jus can't stop myself from thinking?
Why??!?!?

It somehow jus drag mi deeper
&
deeper!

I could hardy breathe every minutes and seconds..

I could no longer helped myself..
I tried to run away from it,
Avoid it...
Dun wish to face it...
BUT

So many many negative thoughts jus flash through my mind..
Over and over again!!
I jus can't help it!!

I been craving for help..
But i know even if others wish to help me..
and i didn't choose to help myself.. In the end is still the same!

I cried lots~ It is jus so painful for mi to let go~~

It jus getting worsen and worsen!

In the end..
I choose to give up
And
Yet...
I gonna give up on
something
that i reaili cherish the most!!
Somethings
that is so important to me!?
Something
that is I dun bare to let go so badly?

I'M SORRI!!!-------------------- Tears~----------------------------------------- I'M SORRI!!!!

I know I'm selfish,
Heartless ,
I hurt u
Inconsiderate,
Don't deserve to have u
Not good enough

But I will NEVER let u leave my life..
Becoz.. U are my life..
If u leave le..
How am I going to carry on wif my life?

WAIT!!!
TIS IS NT THE END OF EVERYTHING!!!!

Having the super confused mind~
Negative thoughts...


At that time.. I reaili veri confused.. I dunno wad to do..
I keep asking myself.. IS tis wad i reaili wanna?
Is tis going to make u feel happier if I go??
Will tis ease ur pain?
Am I going to regret it again? if i give up?

I REAILI DUNNO!!!!

At that part of point ... U gave/told me
TO:
Carry On!
Not to give up!
U give mi strength to carry on!
U ran extra miles just to hold me back!
&
U make mi realised that I meant a lots to u in ur life...

BUT after everything or in facts the things u had told me..
I know.. wad i reaili wanna le..
reaili..

that is To HOLD ON!
that is Not To GIVE UP!
That is....

So much things that i know...
I thought We couldn't make it tis time round..
But u proved me wrong!

Thanks for pulling mi bak..
thanks for holding mi bak !
Thanks for everything u had done!!

Money is always a "factor" that affects us even thought i dun wish to admit it in the 1st place!But after went through so many things..I cannot deny that , it had never been a cause factor in between us!

And today.. I'm going to tell u..
It shall nt be the case from now on!
Becoz.. I got to learn give & take
right? =]


After tis incidents...
I more scare to have that kind of thoughts~~ Reaili... I prevent myself from thinking too much..
If those things might link mi to there...
I can't ! I dun wan! I dun wish to! I dun hope for!!!

I scare to lose u~ ><
even more
...
than before...
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11:28 PM




Saturday, April 25, 2009
Ups and Downs? When will it stop and become neutral?
'X' 24 April 'X'

lolz.. as usual.. Went to sch. .Den had silent reading in e morning..
bag is darn heavy as per normal? =]
Aiyo...ms uma scolding the juniors.. STUPID SUAY KEE!
hope u gt read my blog .. lolz..
Darn u!! Sae me old!? I jus mature den u lehx.. wahhaha!!
lalala... I'm too good lor.. Never stand there get scolding.. hahahaz!!
unlike u... lallaalala....
Must give some comments to ms uma.. den she give u a bad testimo.. hahaha!!
After that i and poh go pay e 'O' level fees.
went bak to classs.wah sian again..zzz
Den at math .. lolz! 1st time sia.. mrs tang never wake mi up! lolz
but lucky i able to catch up .. even though mrs tang gone through the new chapt..
after tat is bio.. Aiyo..
Super jialet.. My brain aren't functioning..
Can't reaili think fast for the ecology system things.. zzz
Well.. i jus dun like tat chapt? no confidence especially?
After recess is hist..
Den went through tis and tat.. =]

During chinese remedial.. lolz..sleeping time! hahaz..
Den jiu math.. ehx.. lolz.. no comments.. =]
Half way through.. i ran out.. lolz.. Was feeling quite bad.. as it was nt like me?
hahaz.. 1st time doing that.. lolz.. but is ok lar..
Met jie le.. den head to my house.. hehex..

As usual...WE PLAYED! lolz..
omg!!! She found my weakness!! arh!!
Die until veri jialet.. lolz..
aiyo... While we playing.. She got cut liao!! arh!!
feel heartpain sia.. aiyo...
I found that she can't play wif me sia.. Nt her hand injure if nt is kana cut..
hai....
Den i do some of my hw while she is slping? lolz..
2nd round of playing..lolz!! hahaz..
Aiyo.. my door ar.. Veri irritating sia... nvm, must used to it?
At nite le.. My sis cook mee sua for us.. hahaz..
den bak to my room again.. Wah!! jie kana another cut again ==""""""
ARH!!! zzz.z..
why ar.. When everytime u wif me..
If nt physically injuries jiu shi internal injuries?

Dunno why..
After ur b'day.. U seems to be changed ............................... [Do i reaili deserve u?
So care abt me? ------------------------ [ Or perhaps it was
So concern abt me? -------------------------- jus a dream that
Always there for me? -------------- I ever got?]
Doing so many things for me?
until.. I sort of not used to it? lolz.. hahaz..
got good and bad as well? hahaz...
But more of the goods of coz.. hahahz..

Each day.. We are getting closer..
But promise mi that u will never neglects ur frens, study , family & most importantly ur health
okaY?

Mid-year is coming le.. ............... Thinking so negative
Hope i reaili can get a good grade =] .............. yet
Den wont disappoint anyone.. .hehex... .................. u're still e best!

-monkey-
Looking forward..
Yet feeling tired...
If i could take all ur pains , Suffering & sorrow away.. Even if it me all means to do so.. I will still do it..
X(- 23 April -)X

wah.. Another tiring day for me.. lolz
I flung my chem.. Wah! nice one.. 1st time in tis year?
arh!!! haiz..
days aren't seems positive to me.. That's why there is a change in my behave?
attitude? endure?
Millions & hundreds of thought ran through my mind..
I can't do anything abt it.. but to let it slip away from me..silently?
Till the day.. I was told by jie.. to face it.. arh!!!!
Haix.. but i know..
If i keep draggin on it will bring no goods to me.. But its seems to be holding mi bak...
haiz..forget abt it.. .
Jus let it be.. be it, worsen or not.. Tis is my fate?
Aiyo.. why today some teachers so angry wif us de ar?
keep scolding us? lolz...
After our remedial... Is my master parade le..
aiyo.. by the time i go down they are having rehearsal le..
So i stay ard.. and i saw lisa oh!! hahaz..
Miss her ~~lolz... We had a long chit-chat.. .=]
After np.. Den go makan! wif my np family and elwin & huiyi plus him..
hahahz... Poor ma.. Keep kana bully by me.. wahhaha!! =P

After that..meet my mum den went hm le.. =]
chit chat wif jie... on msn? phone? lolz..

+ 22 april _+

Waiting for jie.. at the bus stop..
OMG! she brought for me my favourite potato chips! hahaz..
THANKS alot~~ =] (ps)
Hehex.. after tat jie went to come house.. .lolz
OMG! studying? lolz..
hahaz.. omg! jie got blueblack!! must helped her rub.. hehex..
Den she also help mi .. arh!! zzzz...
but mine aren't more jialet den hers lor..
Den there is a silents of sadness?
somehw i jus sense that.. haiz..
at nite.. She accompany me go eat.. =]
then send her hm.. After that.. as usual lor.. she will look down from her window.. lolz
i still can see ur shadow.. lalalala~~~!! =]

Was feeling darn down that day.. So had an early slp~~~~

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1:27 AM




Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Pathetic?
Some of the pic ,
which i managed to get from dong wen friendster? hahaz...

On our "ah ma" B'day!
lolz..
I was darn pathetic.. By putting a candle on top of her burger? which she
was going to finish eating? hahahaz...



Omg! why do they brought for her my monkey1??? lolz..
hahaaz... With long hands and legs.. hahaz...

* =21 April = *

wow.. Today class like missing a lot of ppl sia..
Due to SYF ? hahaz...
I was sitting wif bread ...
Den we chit-chat.. After that slp!! lolz.. hahaz..
But nt bad le lar... I ddin't slp in any of the lesson.. =D so good gal rite?
OF COZ!! hahaz..
After math was Bio ..
Slacking going to bio.. .lalalalal..
Siting wif bread again... cause she was alone? so pathetic rite? hahaz..
See gay partner i treat u so good! hahaz..
then.. OMG! Releasing of class test 2 result.. Sian~~
I 1st page gone case liao.. 5marks sia.. zzz
Den didn't pay much attention to it..
So when ms tay sae the class test result thing i wasn't paying much attention?
I was day-dreaming.. lolz...
So when ms tay annouce the top 3.. i was like so blur?
lolz..
" top was chewping with 20/30 marks.."
Den followed by jerrald and luo zhan i think so?
Den i was like darn blur... so i asked bread " did anyone called my name? "
lolz..!!
Erm.. Miracle happened? lolz... I ddin't even study lar.. zzzz
and i flung my 1st page(5marks).. =="
After bio class went bak to class for chem test..
More wors.t...never even touch on my chem ...zzz
I slept and do.. Slept and do.. in the end i dunno wad I'm writing.. lolz...
After mtl .. den is ss.. Warh!! Can't take it.. -.-
Den jiu history le...

Veri slackly during english remedial.. hahaz..
But gonna to do up her hw soon~~!!! =]

[==__==]
Never say ur happy when ur sad… never say ur fine when ur not ok… never say u feel good when u feel bad… and never say ur alone when I m still alive.



= 20 April =

lolx... Self-declared holiday for me?
lolz.. no lar... Went to accompany my sis to the hospital?
haiz... Again? Why like tat sia?? aiyo...
Let fate decides everything yar?
After that went to shop ard since it is still early..

Den went to far east plaza to collect my caps.. Darn nice.. ehx..
Ps ar.. Haven took pic of it yet.. next post yea? =]

-At night-
Went to find jie at nyp with elwin..
=] Was petty late that time..
And didn't expect jie to accompany mi to eat for my dinner? lolz..
hahaaz.. as well as her frens!! THANKS!
Aiyo.. Was planning like eat 1st den go find her.. but since she end early so plan to
send her hm le.. den i go eat? but failed? zzz.... nvm..
After everything.. went hm and prepared for the next day..


-monkey-
is it a mistake for mi to step into ur life?
Making u feel so miserable? so heartpain ? feeling so negatively?
Perhaps.. I shouldn't had step into ur life at all.. from the begining..


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1:48 AM




Monday, April 20, 2009
Can time jus stop for now!?
Another day!


Today went to Heren(HMV)
to watch something like "concert" lolx..
wow..Some songs quite nice sia..
And jus happened there is one guy
Which make us so attractive to him?
hahaz... Yea.. He is darn cute & handsome ...hahaz
Abit of gay in him somehw..

Here are some of the "secretly" photo of him took by my frens...
hahaz..
So funny lar! hahaz..
But seriously , pic nt veri nice.. But real person darn.. lolz





After that I & bread went to far east since... poh got to go hm 1st..
Then bread brought two cap...
She lent mi one to wear!! hahaz..
erm.. I have no choice but to wear the pink one?
lolz! so weird lar! hahahaz...


After everything we went to northpoint and shop awhile..
After that went hm le!! hahaz...


I reaili hope all the happy moments will never ended!!
& time could jus stop before ur sch reopen~
Becoz i know we could even hardy to meet out again..
Nt anymore??!??
haiz... But always bear in ur mind that I ALWAYS HAVE TIME FOR U!
I will be there for u IF u nid me to!

So worried abt jie..
Hope she wont faint ltr...
PLz ! !!
I reaili scared sia... Haix.. hw i hope i can stay by her side tml..
At least..
When she faint i'll e one who hold her up & seek for medical attention immediately?

-monkey-

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1:27 AM




Sunday, April 19, 2009
How much u meant to me!


Cry On My Shoulder - Superstar


I'll Be Here

I cannot ease your aching heart,
Nor take your pain away;
But let me stay and take your hand
And walk with you today.

I'll listen when you need to talk,
I'll wipe away your tears;
I'll share your worries when they come,
I'll help you face your fears.

I'm here and I will stand by you,
On each hill you have to climb;
So take my hand, let's face the world...
And live just one day at a time.

You're not alone, for I'm still here,
I'll go that extra mile;
And when your grief is easier,
I'll help you learn to smile!

I know
When u are feeling down
u cried
U wanna to be alone
Yet I appear
U holds ur tears back and try all means nt to let me know
I know it
But I jus wanna to be there for you when u are feeling blue
I jus wanna to share all ur bad times ,
even though I can't help u feel better
At least i know , I'll be there for u no matter whats happen!
I will be there sharing the pain u had ,
Open up my ears and listen to ur sorrow~
going through what u had gone.

BECOZ U're NEVER ALONE & NEVER BE AS LONG AS I STILL ALIVE!

They say it takes a minute 2 find a special person, an hour 2 appreciate them, a day 2 love them, but then an entire life 2 forget them.

One day u will ask me: What is more important to you, me or your life? I will say: my life… You will walk away from me without knowing that U R MY LIFE!!!

Although I find lots of many poem or quotes of how much i wanted to let u know ,
How much u meant to me..
But wad i found is never enough for me.. To tell u hw much u meant to me!
Wadever i found could only represent a small portion of the things i wish to let u know..
so let my time & actions & heart to filled up the rest of it..

-Monkey-
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5:18 AM



(See the yummy food!! lolz..
lolxll Even the plate also so cute.. hahaz...)

-18 april 09-
OMG! I'm late!! arh...
Nvm ,, i managed to run 2 rounds... =D
WAs kng sae I'm tired... Coz I'm so fast running out of breath! lolz..
True ar.. haix...
I wonder hw am i going to pass my 2.4 km like tat ?
After tat went to makan wif np family & win..
went to buy food for my sis & bro..
Out to meet poh li for the gym ,
on the bus I saw Chengchin.. lolz!! hahaz... BZ girl aiyo..
We went to newton tgt..
& best things is that..
when we reach novena , poh sae go bak to yishun liao..lolz!!
When reaching gym .. huh? nt bad ar.. Nt much ppl..
But saw some familiar faces... didn't managed to do much..
Coz i try nt to over stress my elbow.. lolz..
After tat went to meet my jie & sis.. And here we go !
to far east plaza.. hahahz!!
Shop & shop~~~
Den went to taka for makan.. lolx!
I was feeling extremely full man! full till walking also got problem..
hahax.. Hope jie enjoyed herself today!! =D

"When it hurts to look back and your scared to look ahead you can look beside you and I will be there."
Nobody is unique! Will u be my nobody?

You're a true friend,
that I want you to know,
Our love for each other
has helped us to grow.
We've been through some tough times,
but we've made it through,
The only one I ever trusted was you.

You helped me through anger,
you've chased away fears.
You held me through sadness,
and kissed away tears.

You stayed by my side
when the world turned away.
You helped me see joy
when the skies were all grey.

You were the rainbow
at the end of the storm.
You help me be different
when I shouldn't conform.

You held my hand
when you knew we would fall.
Every heartache,
you saw me through it all.

I'm not sure
I'm always the best friend to you,
I know I'm not perfect,
but this much is true.

When life gets you down,
And there's nowhere to turn,
I'll help you through and
I'll share your concern.

I'll try my best to return every favor,
When you're sure that you'll drown,
then I'll be your lifesaver;
Even if we both go down.

Whether we sink or swim
doesn't matter at all,
Just know that I'll be there
whenever you call.

I'll pull you out
when life pulls you under.
I'll be the sun
when there's lightning and thunder.

And when it's all over,
And we've fought every war,
There's one thing I promise,
Of this I am sure,
When the time comes
that we're put to our rest.
Be sure that you know that,
My friend, you're the best.

And if there is Heaven,
then I know you'll be there,
That if you die first
then you'll hear every prayer.
And soon I'll join you,
but just know until then.
That I'll miss you each day
'til I see you again.

At the end of the tunnel,
you'll be my guiding light,
You'll lead me to heaven,
away from the night.

We'll be there together,
and we'll never grow old.
And we'll walk hand in hand
On the streets paved of gold

And i believe u r & we will always be... Jus like how much u meant to me!

-17 April 09 -

Wah! A bored day?
Jialat liao... At sch keep slping..
Haix...
don't worri.. I believe NOTHING is TOO LATE!
At garage sale..
Have fun.. But at the same time..Feel bored?
when everything ends... Den still had to bring tables & chair bak to class wif my heavy bag..zz
nearly to end sch le..
Suddenly got a msg from win?
lolx.. I'm TOO SMART To know wad u are up to !
hahaz... But i jus can't prevent it from happening?
=="
While waiting for teacher, i slept!
lolz..
Then suddenly got a called from win.. lolx ! And he brought me medicine!
zzz... Thanks ar... Learn from my jie one.. hahaz...
Both of u all .. waited for me to give mi medicine sia.. Wah piang.. Aiyo!!!
Veri nt used to sia.. lolz! Becoz , normally is me doing tat? lol...
YES! Skipping remedial ==" lolz.. hahahahz...
Disappointing rite? haix.. Must understand coz we are too tired to go?
lolz...
Went to NYP Wif jie & win, Plus her frens? hahaz...
Brought books le.. Den go makan..hehex...
I brought new bag?!? er...lolx! Bo bian.. my own bag is always darn heavy lar..
zzz... Cause my shoulder to be painful.
After tat.. Went for long chatting wif jie! hahaz..
Then win send me hm =]

- i tot -
Our friendships could be quite strong after so much of thick & thin we went through..
But u always proved me wrong..
Perhaps , everything was jus the covering , which covers the trueself of u
I was upset & disappointment when I know wadever we had gone through..
WAS JUS NOTHING meant to u!


*u to me* - u are so unique jus like nobody else could give me !
-Everyday is a day that brings joyful , happiness, smiles , many positive aspect & happy moments EACH TIME u are with me! -

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5:06 AM




Sunday, April 12, 2009
sian.. Tml start sch le..

Our dear princess Fyra B;day? hahaz...

Why i so ke lian sia? hahaz..
Always forced to take photo one ar? lolx..
No lar.. Hope fyra will feel happy =]

Wow! Darn ps alright!at the vivo city there..
Imagine hw many ppl walk pass and see we all took pic?

I captured tis as i walk nearer to tis.. lolz
why is a fake guy doing tis?

Hey gal.. Why ask mi go down to the water?
Aiyo.. So ps!
only kids do that? hahaz...

lolx.. I was so bo liao.. so i took tis photo..
Wow! riding a horse lehx.. hahaz..


End of the day! hahaz...
More photo on the way! yea?

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5NB ROCKS to e Core!! hahaz


Everyone was darn tired lar..
Can u spotted me?
I was busy chatting wif ah J ..lolx
lolz.. Only i and ah j took part in all three event.. wow!
Reaili veri jialat. .but quite fun afterall..
omg! wad bread & poh doing ar?

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9:51 PM




Saturday, April 11, 2009
HEY HEY HEY!!!

YO GUYS!!! SO SORRI I WAS DARN TIRED & BZ TO UPDATE IT!! =P



where should i start?
well.. Let mi start on jie b'day..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUE LIN JIE!!!!
-on e 6 april-

I reaili planned alot for her.. and yupx sorri to some of my frens..
I keep haunting u all like ghost like tat jus to get some idea to celebrate my shanice jie b'day..
hahaz..pardon mi for being so irritating!!! =]

Well , after planning quite a number of things for her..
I realised that plans were kept failing and quite frustrating and sad...
But somehw , i try to think positive and be more flexible? becoz my objective is to make u HAPPY & MEMORABLE day for yar!!
I planned that day which is 6april go make her sad and stuff like tat so that on Monday she sure will surprise.. hahaz.. u wont wanna to know wad i brought for her.. Coz is kinda PS and i felt veriguilty abt it!! zzz.... reaili veri guilty.. becoz of that i didn't have much wei kuo to eat.. and i cried and i try to presuade myself that u know, there are more to come.. & surprise was coming!
and thanks a lot Elwin!! u reaili helped mi a lot a lot !!! and u try to an wei wo also.. lolx!!
hhaaz... But i know everything Was WORTHWHILE !!!

so on her b'day... Elwin become a survey person that go up to her house and ..
There is when i pop out wif a cake? lolz.. hahaz...
ugly my present looked like? WE had chit-chat for quite a while.. and I feel so happy that she felt happy after all despite hwlolz.. =]
I knew all the things i had done , reaili worthwhile ! =]
But it never enough for mi to do those stuff to u..
Don't worri i will be better next time round!! =D
Hope u reaili like those present and celebration...

-more detail abt tis , i think go my jie blog read better.. hahaz-

Followed by Musfirah aka fyra & Liyana aka Ah ma B'day!!

Happy Birthday to FYRA & LIYANA !!!

Today 1st thing wake up is to prepare to go out for "jogging" ..lolz
My np family planned hw to sabo my ah ma.. hahaz...
Den we planned le.. go so called act jogging but actually mi and my ma(jiayi) went to bring the waterbomb and we go throw on her when she had done jogging.. hahaz...
I tell u , it was darn fun.. She was veri wet and went to mac even more worst...
den during her blk i could sae u couldn't wanna to know hw we sabo her...
Wif coconut milk? jelly? drinks?Swt? alot more!!!
hahaz... So jialat rite??
hahaz...

After that went to northpoint and meet up for doing fyra present..
den We were latE@!!!!! my god!!! i should have run!!! zxzz...
WE head to suntec? had our lunch.. wow!!!
I BROUGHT KIDS MEAL!!! lolz... hahaz.. I can't finish ma.. den buy lesser.. hahaz...
i can sae I polluted the noise during the journey hahaz...
Too bad.. I love to talk lots of craps.. hahaz...
Everyone find mi so talkative lar...lalallalalalalalalalla
~~~~~~
Den we took pic at the fountain there....
& mi and ays paid for the photo... C'mon it was jus nothing lar..
Money isn't a problem!!! get it?
den we had shopping after that..
Den it began to rain.. ( did i cause the rain? becoz i sang?lolz..)
den we go to vivo city i could sae DArn a lot of people... lolz..
Den we go play.. and den cut cakes.. wow.. Darn Malu and i sing the loudess? lolz..
lalaz... okay cut it short...
Den we go bak to northpoint and makan.. only i ate ><
i wanted to treat them , they dun wan let me.. .zzz...
SAw a lot of northlanders as well as ex one..
hahaz.....
After makan den we walk walk again....
WAlked le.. go home!!!! hahax... It was an enjoyable day after all....

=]

These few days all the happy things happened.. Although there may be sadness as well..
But well, my happiness are flying everywhere...
hahaz.... All filled in my life....
so sometimes i was thinking Am i dreaming?? hahaz...

-to be continue-
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10:19 PM




Wednesday, April 1, 2009
tired & busy

Sorry guys..I'm now darn tired & slpy...
Too many stuff i got to do.. And is still undone!!!
my goodness!!!! arh!!!
Can I have 30hr per day? Cause i find 24hr/per day jus short!!!!!
How am I suppose to do everything by one day?
is kinda hard sia.. Arh!! Dying soon!!

How am I going to finish?
How am i going to make it?
How am i going to do better in any ways?
What am i suppose to do so that u would feel happier?
What i should be thinking now?
Why i think darn hard now? Where nothing came into my mind?


blah blah blah.... I'm just tried.. and these whole questions keep poping in my mind!!
arh!!!
And my favourite monkey sticker GONE liao..
Been finding it ..
But guess is no longer on sale..
Arh!!! Wanna cry liao lar.. I love it darn much!!
haiz...

seeing my sticker jus gone and i jus can't do anything abt it?
"yea jus a sticker nia.. What's so important? "
well.. u will never know ...how much it is important to me.. that i can't bear to lost it..
And yet.. Surprising .. Only some does cares abt hw i feel..
the rest? Disappointing sia.. haix...
I don't blame anyone.. Cause even my family did that..But more can i still sae?

Dun feel like talking abt others..
Jus simply feel that I'm such a failure!!! haiz..
Bye....

-Monkey-
Jus hope everything end now~~~
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Name :[C]hew [P]ing
Nick :Cp,Monkey,Apple,Cp Wanton
Age :16
D.O.B :27 of july
MSN :[Chew_ping92@hotmail.com]
Friendster :Unknown

[A] simple gal bahx, but with complicated thinking mind-set
veri [S]tubborn worx..
WE choose Our State Of Mind! Be it happy or not....

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A reminder, This is my blog!So do Watch what u had said in this blog! If u not happy with what I wrote,Simply leave here!

.❥Family
.❥Gan-family
.❥Sisters
.❥Friends
.❥YoYo & CiCi Monkey!
.❥Think/imagined alot
.❥Been crazy most of the time
.❥[C]olour:light blue,Black,white n pink.
.❥[G]oing out wif sisterz N Frens.
.❥[M]iie dog,teddy~,muackz ^-^
.❥[E]veryone happy!!(nt fake ar)



✰Going to Poly with flying colours result!
✰Buy New clothes
✰SisTerShip Everlast!
✰Friend Forever
✰Ppl ard me~Stay Happy 4ever!~!
✰Learn to overcome obstacles!
✰I could comprehend people ard me!!



When everything surrounding me,
Is nothing but a fake disguise,
I know I have to go on
But somehow I need you to stand by myside'

I tried to hold u back as long as i can
But i know i got to let go Someday
Before u go,plz tell me where I went wrong ,
So that i can changed,

even if i know u wont stay
but I know hw I feel abt u nw
I try to be nice, but you just laugh.

I'm not fitting in anymore, what can I do?
You don't realize, but it's starting to hurt.
When everything's just right, it always turns to dirt.

Help me, what am I doing wrong?
I don't understand, I'm there when your not strong.
I try to be happy most of the time, but it's getting harder now,

knowing your friendship isn't mine.
But After all,I dun bear to lose u >.<





Special
.❤Shanice_jie❤
Jie
.❤Angelina(jie)❤
Sisterz
.❤Chengchin❤ .❤Shu-wei❤
Gankor
.❤Ah J❤ .❤Nigel-Kor❤
Pri/Sec/Others Friends
.❤Li Jun❤ .❤PohLing(Bread)❤ .❤Liying❤ .❤Camay❤ .❤PohLi❤ .❤YingJie❤ .❤Liting❤ .❤Huiying❤ .❤Miaoling❤ .❤XiaoWen❤ .❤Jas(joe's sis)❤ .❤Ah bes❤ .❤WeeTeng❤ .❤Ah Grace❤ .❤cheng shuan❤ .❤Serene❤ .❤Tearsoflife .❤Elwin❤
BLOG-SHOP Which I WILL GO!

Others...
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❤Who is tis❤


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[-My Gratitude-]
nothing matters
Just when I was been left in the darkness...
U came up and rescue me...
Ur endless
➸Help
➸Motivation
➸Caring
➸Patient
➸Been there for me
➸I will always remembered the Things u had done 4 ME!,Even IF tis is not FOREVER!
✰But I do hope...✰
that this friendship will never end!-
✰Specially To✰:

❤Shanice❤
❤PDP❤
❤People I Love❤


[-CreDits-]
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Was my 1st tried afterall!
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I know is simply veri simple! Well,
I'm not an expert for JavaScript,Html or wadever shit!
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Coz i like it jiu hao! hahax
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