Saturday, January 31, 2009Tired.. Not gg to sae "try" again
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OPPs! So sorri i wake up late again ><But in the end I did manage to catch up wif them!!As usual I go jogging wif them- got ah ma, ma & my kor? hahaz...My ah ma.. only 18 sia.. lolDen ah ma wanna mi to fill up the SPF badges form..but i forgot the dates sia.. zzz, nvm forget it.. no point taking it also .. I so xxxxx....Tot of gg to CI course.. now can just forget it?After that.. went to makan den go hm and prepared to go gym...At gym , just before i left, one of the trainer there... Give mi a IQ question.. actually jus wanna to know whether Am i depend person or nt..Well, kinda true but zzzz.. i not going to do anything abt it.. becoz I am Who i am alright! Sian sia.. zzzz... Den go popular den buy food liao go hm..
Asking myself , why am i wanna to know more abt np?
Been so motivated and looking forward to npcc each time?
Was my ambition reaili wanna become police officer?
Asking myself why i did tis and that?
Jus for wad the hell forsake it is?
I know wad my weakness thing in NP ,
alright i wasn't even fit to become a senior so neither do i ever dream of becoming CI .
Haiz.. tis time round i gg to let ppl down again...WTH!
grr......
Can i start from the scatch?
OMG! Chewping ar!!!
why u turn away an opportunty given to u? to get a SPF badges!!!
That's everyone wish to get that! yet.. .u .... zzzzz...
(i know Wad I'm doing)
(Nothing big deal abt too..zzz)
Alright i know , I'm weak ,
Given up so fast.
yea yea.. i hate myself too..
So dun nid to even bother to care/concern abt me..
Jus let me be ..
-monkey-wadever!
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5:33 PM
Wednesday, January 28, 2009feeling so....haiz..
Sorri guys too tired to update now..
Wadever it is.. i can't change the facts it is..
Wad to do? count my luck lar... zzzz
Darn it.. wadever..
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10:41 PM
Friday, January 23, 2009Discouraged?
Things aren't going smoothly for me..During doing chem experiment , i didn't succeed.Math? I make alot of careless mistake.Bio, I didn't get the brain stuff into my head.Ss? trying to get hold of the points.Eng? Still able to survive although i didn't managed to pass my 1st small test?Hist? Struggling to understand as it is a new topic.D&T ..Worst..So many things had changed.. Higher expectation from O levels.Sae abt D&T , i saw ben today we did share abt the D&T thing..He warn mi abt mr yeo and asked mi to becareful..Well, i dun find anything wrong wif Mr yeo either...Everyone do mistakes and yes.. He did learned his mistake Plus! NOT totally his faults either!Friendship wise..I know i somehw neglect musfirah group.I reaili appreciate that U have the courage to speak up to me!Although I believe that in tis world that there is no FAIR ,But still , I will try to pay attentions and make the necessary changes towards u all.Plz give mi the motivation of holding on wif any of the friendship !Especially those frenships who are close to me!BEcoz, every times when there are problems.I can't take it, i think that letting go is the best way!BUT!I will not gg to let myself think that again!I have to go against my thoughts!BECOZ letting things go IS A WAY OF RUNNING AWAY FROM PROBLEMS!IT will only leads to the regrets I had left behind...It wont solve anything but to Show that U dun dare to face it!I had tried it before, the feeling of it was pity bad,Regrets & grief about why At the 1st place, I preserve it so long BUT in the end ,I have chosenA tragic ending to IT?I still remember When I was sec 3 , my favorite teacher,Tell mi this !" If u wanted to give up , u should have given up last year! Then u wont have wasted last year's effort.Some Things takes time"Doesn't It sound sense to u?Since U had preserve it for long so why not carried on doing that?Think abt it.. There is NO problems that can't be solved in tis world!
Somehw , I have a negative thoughts abt friendships...
Extract form a chinese song,
周杰倫- 我不配
Jay Chou- wo bu pei (I'm not worthy)
Although , That's one part says " I love you" that doesn't mean that LOVE referring to guys only..
Frens do love each other don't they?
Everythings needed love !
歌词詞：方文山 (Vincent Fang)
曲：周杰倫 (Jay Chou)
这街上太拥挤
Zhe Jie shang tai yong ji
This street is too crowded
太多人有秘密
Tai duo ren you mi mi
Too many people with secrets
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
bo li shang you wu qi zai bei yin chang qi guo qu
At the glass, there's the fog hidden from it
你脸上的情绪
Ni lian shang de qing xu
The sulky face of yours
在还原那场雨
Zai huan yuan na chang yu
Is completing that rain
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里
Zhe xiang nong tai guo wan qu zou bu hui gu shi li
This street is simply too narrow to return to the story
这日子不再绿
Zhe ri zi bu zai lu
These days are not green anymore
又斑驳了几句
You ban bo le ji ju
Just a few word exchanges
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
Sheng xia ban kong hui yi de wo zai da fang zi li
I'm left alone in the house, with half-filled memories
电影院的座椅
Dian ying yuan de zuo yi
The seats in the cinema
隔遥远的距离
Ge yao yuan de ju li
Are separated far by distance
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
Gan qing mei you dui shou shi ni gen zi ji xia qi
Feelings with no partner is a game of chess you played by yourself
还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
hai lai bu ji zi zi xi xi xie xia ni de guan yu
it's still too late to carefully write down your concern
描述我如何愛你
Miao shu wo ru he ai ni
Describing how I love you
你却微笑的离我而去
Ni que wei xiao de li wo er qu
Yet you leave me away with a smile
Chorus:
这感觉已经不对
Zhe gan jue yi jing bu dui
This feeling is not right anymore
我努力在挽回
Wo nu li zai wan hui
I tried hard to retrieve
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
Yi xie xie ying gai ti tie de de gan jue wo mei gei
A bit feeling of care that I didn't give
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微
Ni de zui xu de yuan wang hen bei wei
The many wish from your lips is very petty and low
在妥协是我忽略
Zai tuo xie shi wo hu lue
I neglected to compromise it
你不过要人陪
Ni bu guo yao ren pei
However you want some company
哦这感觉已经不对
a zhe gan jue yi jing bu dui
ahh, This feeling is not right anymore
我最后才了解
Wo zui hou cai liao jie
I'm the last to understand
一页页不忍翻阅的情节
Yi ye ye bu ren fan yue de qing jie
Looking through the pages of circumstances which cannot be endured
你好累
Ni hao lei
You're so tired
你默背为我掉过几次泪
Ni mo bei wei wo diao guo ci lei
You have silently cried behind my back for so many times
多憔悴
Duo qiao sui
So shallow
而我心碎你受罪你的美
er wo xin sui ni shou zui ni de mei
Yet my heart breaks and you accepted my sin, your beauty
我不配
Wo bu pei
I'm not worthy
Specially for frens that I had neglected.
-Miss Jie lots-><
STOP AND STARE -One Republic
This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see
They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need
What u need, what u need...
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...
Stop & Stare - One Republic
9:45 PM
Sunday, January 18, 2009Think Back If YOU Nid!
This wAS COOL !
Schools?My last week of schools was terrible as in veri tired...My gosh! Is veri hard to concentrate on SS class..Why?Is simply becoz , His lessons was bored ~ Despite his helpfulness.OMG! Will that affects my Grades? as I started losing interest in it.Days getting tougher each day, My laziness is overwhelming my motivation and Daily assignments.Losing interest also part of the reason..I know , many teachers may sae that if i lose the interest in sec 5 , I might as well , dun come to sec 5 and go ahead to ITE.Well, It isn't a bad things, but now, I wanna to slack a bit 1st before things started to get taut.I remembered when doing the Notice-board wif Shiyun.Sometimes, she asked mi , U think can mar? So I gave a straight-forward ans - U never try how u know u can or not? Sounds familiar? yea but is kinda true when it applies to life.-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------I have more motivation in the following lessons, English, Math, Chinese , Sci ,Hist,D & T er... Yea, Everysubj except Ss? Every single subj wasn't easy at all , I getting hard on it.. But still , I can't run away ! -------------------Slacking In Progress--------------------I still Got Two English comp , chem, D&T journal HAVEN DO ! zzzz....Sorri , as I said I'm slacking.. Just let mi rest ok? I'm tired....Fri (16 Jan)After sch , went hm to take stuff and go makan le go np ... Sec 4s was once under my care , somehw many of them disappoint me.But I hope they will become more appreciated by everything that was given to them.The Opportunities , chances and etc.Hope they will carry a positive attitude always be it in the schools or their life.I don't wish them to come to Np just for the sake of coming/attendences but instead , a looking forwards mind-set when coming.Got Master parade - Miss chee, Ms ong attended tat ! After NP , send ah ma hm , on the way was chatting to her neighbour! The uncle tot I'm Pri 5 ==" Then we play ping-pong ball! hahaz... IT been a long time ever since I last play it.WEnt hm after that ! Sat (17 Jan)Morning can't wake up to go for jogging wif my NP ah ma, ma , frens & juniors.11plus..Went out wif shanice jie and her frens to bugis..Guess after 1 week or more wouldn't able to see shanice jie as, is either she got test/overseas or I not free.But today I spend most of my times wif her ! I very satisfied le.
Shanice can sae is someone who is veri important in my life ! Without her, I dunno wad my life could turns up to be. Although I and her didn't meets-up often neither do we chat always but still , she stands a place inside my heart.
Please don't make any comparison between you and her.
Everyone had indifferent position in my heart.
And this kind of things, can't be compared!
Sun(18JAN)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED JIE, Ah yen !
Today also zhou jie lun B'day !
hahaz... Such coincidence!
zzz..Sorri jie I even throw my fury onto u despite today is ur b'day.
Haiz, sorri abt it, I hate myself too ! ><
Before I end !
Just now , a few of them i knew , say CP this and that..
Den i tot it was saying abt me , but in facts is Computer Program !
lolz!!! I'm too used hearing ppl called mi CP le.. hahaz..
Looking forward for tml ...
zzzz..my hw still remain undone!
=Monkey=
State of mind
Rock band 2
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4:40 PM
Sunday, January 11, 2009WANTED?
I dunno when I will start to post again.. So yeahx... Today wake up wow! IS already afternoon time! I keep waking up and fall aslp again , =="Still got alot of hw haven do.. sian..Btw on the 7jan09 , I would like to thanks ms oh... =] For wad reason , she knows bahx. TML is the Reveal of O levels Result days!Those ppl who been waiting for long for that days to come rite?Tml i will at there too! eh..( See them cry wif joy!)All the best and good luck for TML(O level students)!As well as my shanice jie! She will be having test tml, so all the best to u!!Jia you ar! =]Tml was like got three events , Sister discharge from hospital tml , Shanice jie having test,the reveals of O level result... lolz! All happen in one day!Nice one!
=monkey=
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2:10 PM
Sorri Guys for not updating my blog for so long.. Eh...Aiya update also nobody will see.. =="
Nowadays I been very tired as I've been going for NUH for almost 1week.Nothing happening to me basically, but instead is my sis.. She went for a surgey on the 7Jan09.So yar.. Some of u must be wandering why i didn't come to sch on that day, well , got to accompany her into the hospital.The surgey went successfully! But I was like outside waited for a few hours...zzzzzWhen I saw her.. Okay she was darn weak and she keep slping! I waited and finally I went hm 1st, cause I was darn bored & she didn't wake up!Of coz i do worried abt her...haiz..During these 4days of visiting her, she is getting better each day! Although the doctor predicted that she can go hm after 3-4days but still in the end sae is the 5th day! During these 4 days ,
I didn't get enough rest or slp ,
neither do I have the concentration/focus on studies
Or time to do my HW
Honesty I spend most of time in the hospital taking care of my sis although there are nurse but still , is better to have a family members beside u.
And 1-2days she in hospital , several things happened and make mi felt worried & heartpain.
But of coz i didn't show it to her! but as long I'm there, wadever i can help, i will try to help!
Sorri guys everything on my post was wording!
&
Thanks for some of friends who send regards to my sis OR Pray for my sis!
Wishing her and all that !
She getting better as I said & she going to discharge soon!
Readers,
Do take care of the loves ones of urs & of coz urself!
Becoz , when u , the suffered ones is always U & those who cared abt u!
U mux be thinking why do they suffered as they were not u rite?
Well, simply is becoz , IS HURTS to see u in that state!
& WORRIES may cause alot of things!
So yar, Plz take good care of urself and the others who u care abt!
Well, indeed , Sec5s aren't easy
EDUCATION!
Let me starts wif BIO lesson ,
We learned a new chapt Called "eyes"
er... okay , I didn't get those functions in my mind as I tried to but still hard larr..zz
On one particular day, I saw Mdm K , as usual , she questioned me ,
How Come I Didn't get An A1 for my BIO..
Yea , i know is kinda disappointing.. But I can't change the facts that it is !
Maybe Becoz of this I Give up my 1st Quiz on the "eyes"
Sorri , I have my reason behind tis !
Chem Lesson,
zzzz... No comments
MAth lesson ,
Eh.. Still able to manage
English lesson ,
Can't learn anything much yet.. .but still trying
D&T lesson,
Don't sae liao , I dun remember my Design Brief lar.. Still wanna mi to write bak the same things! NEXT WEEK Getting the "THEMES" for O levels! so fast start liao..Sian...
SS lesson,
Don't even know wad the teacher is trying to do..
Make it so confusing.. zzzz
Chinese lesson ,
Hehe.. Mdm Ho Was darn funny and interesting sia...
We always laugh at her lesson !
Only her lesson , Can more relaxs.
History lessons,
Okay still not bad , But I haven got the chances to read my testbook althought teachers told us to!
These few days ,
I was not concentrated during my lessons,
sometimes, i even fall aslp ! (zzzzz)
aiya not only lesson , At MRT also got, hospital also got. Almost everywhere!
I dunno how also, everyday by the time I reached hm is nearly midnight le , yet the following day still got schools. then Hw not done...
Everyday go sch , most of the teachers all Face "black"!
Except chinese lessons!
The Principle had restricted all the school rules ! Until , I begins to lost interests in studies and schools. DARN STUPID LAR!
Waste our money & time also!!
Can someone plz extent the numbers of hours each day!
CAn it be like 26hours per day?
or 30hours in one day?
Hope My Sis will recover SOON!
=Monkey=
Times is running out!
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2:22 AM
Thursday, January 1, 2009Welcome 2009 !
A bad Starting & A Bad Ending of 2008!Let's recalled bak in 2008 , 1st day of sch , kana caught for "dying my hair ! " (darn it , i didn't dye my hair lar ! )Last day of sch , Sian , Result wasn't wad i was expected ! Its was an unpleasant moment for me ! Things happened & makes me realised lots of things.Should I be thankful for those "downs" moments? Maybe I should! Cause without it , I wont able to know how to pick myself up again & face it! -Ytd-WEnt to buy shoes & Shirt for excerise used!As I had said is an bad ending...So yup , mood was down & i didn't realised that ytd was the last day of 2008!Not until angelina jie Called me... She asked mi to go for count-down tgt !I reaili wanna to go .. But...If i go i will spoil everyone mood ! So tot of it again , I better dun go bahx..Stay at hm like I always do.Sorri angelina jie , Tis year hao mar? Den hopefully we go count-down tgt !Honesty , I dun feel any special day for the " New year" Okay i better dun sae anymore , I will surely spoil everyone mood!-02 JAn 09-Tml Will be my sch reopened le! FINALLY ! I can go study!!! & I'm Going to be like one of those express students to take O Level TGT!Hahaha... Opps! Which means I'm gg to stress again ! zzzz...Plz dun asked me.. Whether wad I'm wishing for 2009.Cause i dunno will those come true or not...&Everytime , went to hospital was like facing life & death ! I lose Someone , Dearest to Me , So close to me Before! So I can't affort to lose ANYONE!
I can't affort...I can't affort....Just becoz I lose it before ...Just becoz I knew how worse it is ; that kind of feelings. Just before i ended...
I jus wanna to let u know
只要你可以永远开心我会情愿渐渐被忘记静者恒静就让我的心安静地守着你把祝福送给你+Monkey+
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11:40 AM
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OPPs! So sorri i wake up late again ><
Life is so bored