Jus wanna to hold on to u.. When nothing mattered~

✖I don't care what life will be in future!_____I jus wanna to hold u TIGHT close to me!_____✖

Saturday, December 27, 2008* Merry Christmas *

On Christmas Day !

Went out wif huiyi & chengchin...
shop awhile den i have to rush bak home to deliver Xmas present to my frens!
&
yar.. That's all =]

On the Christmas Eve!

My family was invited to my aunt house for celebrating X'mas..
I dun wanna to go at 1st.. but bo bian whole family got to go..
So went there and MAKAN!
My goodness!
They brought 3 Logcake~
2 ice-cream one and one durian!
It was so nice! I think is my 1st time eating logcake =="
have a mouthful of red wine !
okay ! is darn ....zzzzz
4get it.. my bro drink the whole glass cup..(==)
After that i have to go early head to Taka !
My bro accompany mi there! Wow! The MRT station was like is a mess!
Full of ppl & the person there was darn rude!
" Get out of this station now ! The station is over-crowded! "
Darn it! veri noisy lar him...

We head to Waise-ma( spelling error) okay.. the exist was block by police due to too many ppl..
So we went to the taka...
Phew! veri less ppl inside..

Here we are in the Cab heading to Np!
Can u see how many ppl is there!
And plus still got lots of police officers controlling the crowd..
I was asking my bro..
the police scare here got terrorist ar?
hahah!

Here is the overall present i got from my beloved frens!

Let's take a closer look!

This was given by my beloved shanice jie!!
Hehex...
By now i still dun bear to use sia..
Or eat also.. ><

Tis is the chocolate !
1st time i saw chocolate got name de wor!!
Not a normal chocolate but a....
hahaz..So unique!!
hehex..Got my NAME ar!!!
Nobody can eat it!!!
=P

NEXT!

Tis is Done by Chengchin!!!
Isn't this cute!
She spend lots of time making it as well ! =]
&
is reaili veri nice and cute

O.o?

Why is the envelope is delived to my house one??
No stamp somemore!
So special ar...
hahaz...
Okay.. Tis is given by Jiayi ( now is my mama)
lolz!
Let's see wad is inside!

o.O????????
A card! & .....
okay i dunno hw to sae but is made by her de wor!
she had made from mi once.. and now another one..hahaz
nice rite?

SEEE!!!

huh?
The person wrap till veri nice sia..
I kept guessing wad is inside!!
the present is given by huiyi!

Veri hao qi!

Wow!
Is a....Magnetic X'mas tree!
Wif...
Different type of faces...

Wait wait wait..
Wad is the behide?
My gosh! hahax...if u all zoom in u all will know wad's it says..

Tis is the present brought from me and jiayi!
For That Dong wen B'day!

Hehex... Tis one is brought from my sis!
With my favorite Monkey there!

Monkey reaili APPERICATE ALL the present that u all gave!!!

THANKS SO MUCH!
love u all Muackz!
=]

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6:21 PM

Tuesday, December 23, 2008STATE OF MIND

Nowadays i been reading a book called " Psychology & Emotion(understanding how to Deal wif life) "
Well, somehow , i found out there are quite a number of things which links to my thinking.
&
Is veri true that.. Everything starts from our state of mind..
If we think positively, even the worst things that happened to u may not be that worst as well..
Is all depend on how u think ...

So well ,
Sorri guys , i didn't update my blog recently..Which i was suppose to.
Days aren't getting better at all..

A summary of hw i feel nowadays..

Studies.

I keep reminding myself of the stupid result i got..
Is kinda disappointing,
I know i can't change the facts that is like tat !
Only can carried a disappointing heart looking forward 4 2009

Friendship.
I been avoiding lots of ppl..
I lose trust in ppl easily,
Somethings i will ask myself " where did i went wrong? , why most frens seems to be so far away from me?"
Even the one I took as most important person doesn't seems rite too..
If my days without frens , wad would my life have become?
Honesty speaking.. I was too scared to be treated tis way once again.
Those betrayed, Back-stab , lies , takes me 4 granted , etc.
In facts, ppl didn't turn up as wad i expected wad they will do.
So is like, i keep on having disappointment again and again!

Maybe my expectation is too high..But i believe if i can do it why can't they?!?
Why can't they treat mi the way i treat them?
BECOZ THEY ARE NT ME!

So instead of me should accept who they are !
it turns up to be " avoiding them"
I admit i didn't care much 4 them as wad i should do normally.
I'm sorri becoz i found it pointless where ppl's don't appreciate it

NOT only , friendship is now bothers me.. Even families as well as study are now haunting me everyday!

I know, nowadays some of my frens aren't feeling rite too..
especially jie ,dw, and others..
So dun nid to bother abt me..
I will still handle everything on my own..

I dunno if anyone would be there 4 mi or nt..
wad i know now , is that i facing everything alone..
But is alright ! I will hang on there becoz.. There are ppl who nids mi to be there 4 them!
Even if they dun nid mi.. I will always on "stand-by" mode...

[-X-mas-]
sorri guys, i can't able to buy any present now..
But i will try to buy some !
Hands is veri tight nowadays due to family problems...
I now can't even celebrate any X'mas wif some of my frens..
Guess tis year is my bad year.. I wants to celebrate..
but even if i got, it can't be an happy one . thus, wad's the point of mi having any X'mas celebration which me not feeling any happy at all?
haiz...

+monkey+
able to survive though..=]

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10:08 PM

Thursday, December 18, 2008N Levels result

Aren't anyone nervous abt their result?

So yupx, Today wake up at 6.25a.m & going to sch for cca..
well, nothing much to do over there..Just went and see hw the juniors perform themselves.
Times drawn near as I was slacking all the way !

Saw miss mellissa walking pass..
Dong wen was like dunno wad happen run towards her..lol
But i sat down at the white room as my inspector is giving lecture at there! lolz!
Walk towards miss mellissa
And guess wad she told me?
" No matter wad the result is , u got to accept it.. And u mux tell urself u had done ur veri best!"
well, is she trying to hint mi or something?
zzzz...I was like, haiz, gonna think for the worst now..

But when i saw mr neo ,
He changed my mood! my emotions!
But of coz he never changed me lar =="
He gave mi some good news as well as bad news...
But i gotta accept both ..
Do i have a choice to choose huh?
Nope, and i lose the bet to mr neo =="
Alright , u won I lose ! And i lose one treat at swensen! My goodness!
Hw am i gg to pay? ==" sian...

-2.00p.m-

wow! why so few of them here today?
MIA on RESULT DAY??
The new principal , gave the briefing abt the overall performances.
zzz.
He sae He gg to put hard on us next year for those who promoted?
Isn't that called torture?

Alright! It's time for us to take the result !
I took mine as though I'm nt nervous , but indeed i wasn't ..
Cause... for some reason..

But i wasn't happy at all! For my D&T n Sci !
My goodness! i was expecting an A1 !
But there are aren't.. Alright go ahead and say that I'm lousy..
I am ! I failed to ....achieve an A1!
And is shame for mi to sae that ,cause i only got an A2 !
After so many months or weeks of hardwork , that's only wad i can achieve?
Jie mux be feeling upset ( even if she sae she wasn't)
I'm sorri , that I'm unable to achieve an A1 for u ...
But wadever it is , I was promoted to sec 5 which i was veri glad to hear that!
At least, I prove to myself that i can do it & hard work do pay off..(for certain subj)

However, i didn't do as well compared to my prelim !
Quite disappointing , i mean hw could tis be happening?Prelim are suppose to be harder den n level?isn't it?
But why my result for prelim is better den N level?
Alright , Darn it?

Higher Nitec Better? Or Sec 5?
I'm struck!
Right in the middle of these two ...
I couldn't decide which is best for me !
I dun wanna any regrets in future just becoz of my stupid decision i had made!
I seeks for advices of some teachers and seniors.. And here the conclusion!

I Decided to GO SEC 5s

Gotta prepare for sec 5 ! But wad i should do ? Okay slack 1st.. hahaz..
Next year gonna be not easy road for me..
But i gonna try...

For some of my frens who didn't managed to promote..
All the best to u all !
Remember , if there's a will , there will be a way.
No matter where u all go , Goal is always can be achieved.
There are always many ways to achieve ur goal just the matter of, are u willing to try?
To give it a shot?
Give all ur best?
and do u wanna it?

Don't GIve Up easily !
That's aren't the end of ur life if u didn't do well in N level..

Yup , i know i aren't u all , But i did have lots of worse things that i think of..
Can sae is scaring myself, low in confidence, Putting myself down till the core.
and that is when i seek for help ! I went to counseling and all ..
Jus trying to find hope for mi !

-Silly gal-
wei ! u are totally veri silly !
know why? Giving away chocolate to ur frens for farewell?
C'mon, nt at if we will not meet up next time ! That' s aren't the end of our friendship yet.
But i know, people do change ..
But do change for better yea?
All the best to u !!!

-Someone-
I feels that u are drifting away from me!
I know , i did let u down somehw for my result.
Maybe that's better for u some hw? At least , now u can focus on ur studies...
Times reaili flies , and it change u as well...
And i found i'm talking too much! Too much craps ! and yea..
IS darn IRRITATING ! (but is better den remain slient and no one is talking?)
Actions tells everything.. And u may sae that I'm assumed things..
But that's wad i feel ...
Hope u will feel more better after drifting away from me.

Last but not least ....

CONGRATS TO THOSE MADE IT !
&
THOSE WHO CAN'T DON'T BE DISCOURAGE BY IT !
( just remember dun ever give up!)

SEC 5 s HERE I COME !
Monkey

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10:11 PM

Sunday, December 14, 2008Darn Cool!

Hello everyone..
Hey do anyone know abt a game called " RESIDENT EVIL?"
hahax...
Tis was my bro and I favourite games!
Although i didn't play.. But it was always veri exciting when I watched my bro play~

These are some of the images!
Be Prepared!
as..... u will know why..later

Isn't He look Cool & handsome?
here a little story abt him!
He was
Leon S. Kennedy, a wisecracking government agent investigating an inconspicuous European village where the US president's missing daughter was supposedly sighted.
The place he was assigned to , was an infected area! Is kinda like a type of virus!
Which spread uncontrollable , However, he was managed to survive and complete the mission.

okay.. that's all... hahaz... interested? go find out urself! lolz..

He was the main actress in this game(obviousl)!
That's why he look handsome?lolz..

Although , he look abit old...
But still he has the handsome face! lolz..
and he even look more cool in the games/video!

Ps, that's the biggest pic i could get =="
These are the Village's ZOMBIES!
which Leon had to encounter everytime he was on missions.

Oh! tis was a close look on those zombies!
Aren't they look so ....
CUTE?
hahahaha!! ( okay is disgusting=.=)

o.O? Doggy why u become like this?
Okay, u're been infected! Hor hor.. if u may find dog cute..
U have to think again!
Coz in tis game, the DOG AREN"T CUTE!
they are fiercest den wad u can imagine! hehehex..

+=Struggling? Are u?=+

Lifes getting tougher..
But dun worri ,
Monkey able to cope wif it.. despite...So many things happened?
I dunno why i always have that telling to myself " used to it? "
This three words helped mi alot !

Hahax.. maybe some of u can try it?
C'mon try to accept it and take it as it is something we got to gone through in every part of our life!
well, of coz, is never easy ! But at least u did TRY it !
I know, many things are said easier than do!
But still we got to accept it isn't it?

Wad i can do now ,
Is to pray that things may get better each day..

[=Monkey=]
Look at the brighter side alright?

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11:22 PM

Thursday, December 11, 2008Are u feeling tis way?

Have any of u ..

Feels like facing the world on ur own?
Forcing urself to hide everysingle of ur feelings?

U KNOW !
that u just have to hang on and keep on moving..
that u just have to stay POSITIVE
&
that u're wrong for thinking things so negatively

PRETEND
that u're just alright and everything will be fine the next day
that u're not hurt inside

&

FIND ALL THE REASON
Just to keep you going
Just to make u think that what u had done worth it

BUT WHAT HAPPEN IN THE END?

U found out that U'RE LOST!
U DUNNO WHO U ARE!
U Just been "someone"..Someone, people likes to mould u into!

But yet!
U never stop trying even though there are many times u wanted to !

U been searching for an answer!
An answer that could solve all ur questions!
But Y
a "small" things that ppl's say make ur questions narrow down!
These
Makes u feels that u're at least worth for just a little things u had done for them

ARE U ONE OF THOSE?

Sorri guys i didn't post anything abt my life rite now..
Erm. dun worri too..

ONL

Everything will be alright =]

+ monkey+

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10:12 PM

Friday, December 5, 2008Life still goes on... Even...there are always 'Ups & Downs" come across IT

=-5Dec08-=

Wow! Finally a day I got a chance to meet jie.. hehex.
Today early in the morning..Secretly went to NYP and so called wait for her..
But actually wanted to know the idiot " G" a frens of hers..
so reached there at ard 10.10a.m like tat..
as jie sae tat her test will end at 10.30a.m
Who knows...When i was at the bus inter-change she told me , she had end her test le
lolx! Okay..I'm so unlucky yar?
But~ I jus wanna to try my luck , So went down to NYP and "waited"
But again! NYP was so big!
So many entrance and exits..
How am i suppose to know where to wait? =="
Okay.. Wadever i waited at the busstop there..Was kinda stupid but just waited to let the time pass faster !
zzzz! Darn unlucky..Didn't even see any soul of them ~~
Went bak to MRT as meeting jie at 11.10p.m

-YCK MRT-

wah!
zzzz....NExt train had to wait 4 6mins!
So i was thinking..Maybe My luck still haven gone yet?
okay..wadever just wait..
Walk here and there ...
SUDDENLY !
When i turn ard..See who i saw??
I saw jie !
And didn't expect her to see mi also.. den jiu...[smile!]
den i faster run away liao, hahaz!!
"zhen shi wang tian bu fu you xin ren ah! "
Just when i tot I was darn suay... Suddenly, is like so suddenly! Luck is still there! hahaz!
One more lucky..I saw "G" that stupid idiots gal..
Feel like wanting to follow her into the MRT train at the oppsite..hehex.
After tat got to know, jie's frens..
Yup..Indeed they were friendly..Especially..er..forgot the name..zzz..nvm sae le u all also dunno..hahaz

=Yishun=
Went to certain place.. From 11 plus - 5.30?
Okay, 1st time gg wif jie 4 so long..Normally, is i stay at her house 4 so long! hahaz..
Went to popular especially..She wanted to brought "o"level book 4 me!
omg!!! MY result aren't out yet.. and yet so fast prepare 4 next year?
lolz!
YES~ ! She gg to teach mi sci again!! lalala..Darn happy..But also abit of unwilling..
As she is darn busy after sch had reopened..
haiz..see Hopes fall again !!! okay.. i was kinda dependant on her...=(
Chewping u got to be independant alright? =( "yar.."
After that sat at the bus 4 one round.. den jiu head to orchard le..again! =="
Jiu came hm le... hehex..

After all..
Jie still willing to teach me!
hahax..To tell u e truth..I am veri naught & lazy person sia! hahaz..
She mux be having hard time teaching mi yar?
Thanks alot...I could never had a frens just like u do
!

+Monkey+

Today was my happy day!

{-4 Dec 08-}
Today is a day..Went go to find my pri sch frens..
Meet liting & dw
and went 4 chat
went to find min yi too..
OMG! she feels towards us was like totally stranger..
Okay..Kinda sad.. haiz..is like..C'mon jus like 4years nv meet each other..and so fast..
U had forgotten abt our happy times?
went to find serene also.. hehex..She like pig sia..Keep sleeping..[opps, dun tell her i sae her pig! hahaz..]
Liting was wif me all the times.. While, dw keep cycling ard using my bic =="
Den went for makan[dinner]
only i ate.. zzz..
After tat chat awhile jiu sae "byebye le"
after liting go hm le..I and dw sat down chat somemore..lolx!
okay..just awhile nia.. Den rushing bak hm for my 9p.m 'xiao niang er' shows.. =]
den here i am.. Awaiting 4 today to pass ...

'Monkey'
Smile ~!

+-3 Dec 08-+

Looking at the blog blankly..
Don't know how I should start my posting for today

Today went out wif some of my pri sch frens..
Wow! They didn't change anything much, just tat dyeing their hair and all.
My mood were up to the max.
I can't stop laughing at mac
IS freaking funny alright!
Okay , plus i was veri happy to see them once again as i tot i could never had the chance to
I can sae, from today on, our friendship getting closer one more step !
Although, we went into different schools now or in future,
But we still will keep in touch yar?
Same thing, stick tgt as 1 !! Jus like we did before...
We went to bishan and watch the chiwawa(movie)
After that went shopping around ~~

Opps! PS, forgot to tell u all.. Who my pri frens i went out wif..
Got Grace, Liting,Serene and me! =]
But too bad min yi wasn't wif us ...zzzz
Wonder where she is...Nowadays.
After tat serene had to go met her frens jiu left mi , grace & liting..
We went to yaKun and eat..
hehez...

/:Monkey:/
Moods getting up !

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11:30 PM

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

A few days ago went to shu wei and heard tis song..
Kinda nice too ! hahaz..

and today went up suddenly feels like listen to tis song!
hahaz...
So i would like to give all my frens tis song

Haix..jie been veri veri busy recently..
Is like 2weeks plus le wor..
Didn't even gt the time to chat on msn also..
Hope she wont stressed out & do wish tat she can did well 4 her test !
And i believe she sure can do it de larh!! hahaz..

My days are getting tougher each day..Haix..

=bread's group=
Sorri lehx, these few days I'm nt free...
Can't go out to have any movie wif u all.
I hope we can go out again soon! =]
Keep in touch yea? =P

+Meeting out wif my old pri frens Tis coming wed! +
Ps ar.. I sae old..Coz is like so long nv meet le...
Erm got 4years le?
Surprise yar? i wonder hw much she had changed into ! hahaz..
Missing the olden days so much!

And here another songs..
I heard from huiying and my pri sch frens's blog

But overall i still like the song ( dui bu qi) lots

Last but nt least..

sorri guys 4 nt online often ,

As I unable to use my stupid laptop to online and even blog..

So yupx Been using my bro and sis com to blog and online.

So wont able to online recently le bahx..

Anything just sms mi alright?=]

Miss u all lots~!

Hope to see everyone of u all soon!

Byebye and take care

_Monkey_

Keep in touch yar? =]

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12:05 PM

Monday, December 1, 2008What am I?

Sorri guys for not posting things that i went through everyday..
It took long time 4 mi to type everything..
So just let my pic post 4 today

I Never tot that i could touch it once again..
Yes, i was feeling down on tat day..
No matter wad i do, things just aren't gg rite again!

Hey! Wad are u doing in my house??!!??

Let's take a look closer! OMG! The grasshopper Shitting on my floor!
But i pity for it as it lost one leg ><>

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