Jus wanna to hold on to u.. When nothing mattered~

✖I don't care what life will be in future!_____I jus wanna to hold u TIGHT close to me!_____✖

Friday, June 22, 2007-haix-

_=My mind was so BLANK!=_

Today i wake up at 1 ...lolx veri late rite but den in between gt wake up 3 times bahx...
1st time phone ring...
2nd time phone ring again..
third time dun nid to sae liao is also phone ring lolx....
Today was quite a boring day for mi bahx..Sae reaili de i can't concentrate on my studies at all...
My mind was so blank ..
So i went to visit sw de blog....Haix sad again ...
I reaili dunno what to do sia...Mind so blank again...
Now my house was so cold and dark , raining narhx so heavily.
Jus two more day left to sch reopen...3weeks and 4days so fast jiu past le...
Soon it's going to be my 'N' level le... I reaili dun wish to disappoint anyone! But will i able to pass?
I reaili dunno... Now i dun wan to start any relationship ,wad i wan is just study and study.
The past few years how many ppl been disappoint by mi? I can say is uncountable...
Every time i tell myself...' Time is rushing , there's no more time for mi , fast fast fast! '
I keep telling to myself yet i can't do anything about it.
Who dun wan to improve their study .. Everyone wants , but how!

**Problems keep coming out...**
I always tell myself think positive! And i must! Regardless of how sad am i , how confuse i am..
Yeahx i know i been EMO sometimes but i also dunno why...
Everytime i went out there's always one min i like to be alone....
Hey i'm not sad u know~ I'm not emo too....
So never think of that...I always thinking positive de...Hahax...^-^
dun nid to worry abt mi...Sometimes i do wan to be alone wor...But that the way i am!
Hey sister...No matters what...I will always be there..I might not be any help but i can be a listener ,plz bear this in mind...
And of cause not only to my sister but to all of u...

This few days i keep going out wif my pdp sister..hahax...Have alot of fun~~
Hey sisterz~ when u all will be coming to my house and watch the ghost movie?
Hahax...Fun sia...I wan to scare sw again...lol ^-^

=_To my PDP sister_=
Sorry sister...how much i wish to help , but i'm still can't...Haix
Do u all think i'm so useless? Maybe bahx.... If anything if u all think i can help de just tell mi okayx?
Time passes real fast..Soon is sw and my mum b'day le And den huiyi de...And mine...Followed by chengchin de... Wow~ Soon we all will get out IC le..hahax
And of cause soon is our sec3 camp & EXAM!

**Lifes is always up and down**
Is easy to lost their trust But is hard to grain their trust back once more...
Is easy to sae then do
Things are easy to lose but it's so hard to find back...

*_=To my ms lao gong.. =_*
Sorry leh lao gong , So far in my blog i didn't mention u at all...
Reaili so sorry...
Time passes so fast wor...We known each other for almost 3 years plus le wor
Hahax...I still remember that u are my 1st std in ms & rl...
Even though i didn't std wif u in rl but i already took u as my rl std ^-^
Then alot of brk & patch here.. and there....lolx so sorry >.<
Thank you lao gong...
I know even though last time i brk wif u , u are always waiting for mi
Regardless of those hurtful words i said before , whether i am another bf ornt...
U will always there waiting for mi...
I still remmeber got one day we was planning to married in the end i called it off...
Because i quit ms le...Haix hai dao ni lose ur 4 prepaid ms card...
Sorry again ><

--+29/05/07--+
On this day we got married in msn... Shock rite? Married in msn?
well , no body in the conversation only got us...But we took god as our witness..^-^
Lao gong ~ wo ai ni 13 14 & is always 184 ^-^

Sign off...
Thinking positive now and den.....^^

ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--

5:05 PM

When everything surrounding me,
Is nothing but a fake disguise,
I know I have to go on
But somehow I need you to stand by myside'

I tried to hold u back as long as i can
But i know i got to let go Someday
Before u go,plz tell me where I went wrong ,
So that i can changed,

even if i know u wont stay
but I know hw I feel abt u nw
I try to be nice, but you just laugh.

I'm not fitting in anymore, what can I do?
You don't realize, but it's starting to hurt.
When everything's just right, it always turns to dirt.

Help me, what am I doing wrong?
I don't understand, I'm there when your not strong.
I try to be happy most of the time, but it's getting harder now,

knowing your friendship isn't mine.
But After all,I dun bear to lose u >.<