Jus wanna to hold on to u.. When nothing mattered~

✖I don't care what life will be in future!_____I jus wanna to hold u TIGHT close to me!_____✖

Wednesday, August 27, 2008Fark up day~

Yesterday
Study from 6 to 11 plus , mostly is study for chem as today got exam on chem and D&T
I went to rest awhile on the bed...And Bomb! Fall aslp liao~!
2a.m start to wake up and continue to study till 5a.m and den go slp liao...
5.30a.m wake up le...Give morning call to sw and den prepare to go sch le...

After study so much on chem..well, actually i dun reaili remember all so yeahx...
But hor~! Exam paper ....The question i see liao..I'm feel like killing teacher!
Not because the paper was too difficult but is because the paper some of the question
took from last few years paper which we had already done before le..
I was expecting at least some difficult questions or mostly different question which
I didn't encounter before de...But sadly it didn't... Haix...study so much yet wasted!
I waste too much time on my chem le till D&T i flung the paper! Darn it! haix...
The D&T paper was quite disadvantage to me..Cause i didn't take physic and yet the last question is all able physic.. i can't even do a single question on that...
Then my fren who took physic de of coz take that question ...They sae darn easy..i was like
Yeahx lor to u all ma...Nt to me... ><

Today i know my history marks le...Darn sux!
I only manage to get 38/50! wad the hell lor..
After today paper had to stay bak to do SPCA things..
Teacher gives us 4hrs of cip! lolx..Well, we reaili did for 4 hrs..so yeahx..
Well, some ppl together wif mi doing de...Didn't reaili deserved that 4hrs..As they did veri less..
U know wad they do? they chitchat..den do abit...
I didn't sae i do alot but at least i try to do...I nv sit down on the bench for more than 3hours lor...
I keep on doing while some of them enjoys themselves happily...
One of my frens asked why u so hardworking ar? I didn't sae anything..Actually i wish to sae that ' i been waiting for some ideas and yet no ones gave and just keep on waiting' But I'm lucky to have iman to help mi , he helped mi to design all that..while huiyi and huiying help us to cut...Thankfully got iman if not i dunno hw long am i gg to wait and do...
I was like an idiots there coz i keep on asking and yet most of them sae.."up to u lor"
So wad is the different between got ask and nv ask? Ok larh, wei qiang did tell mi ' try to put tis way and that' But in the end still tell mi ... is up to u...
Den i was like ' Half-sian-diao'

*chengchin*
I'm sorri sis...I know i suppose to wait for u today...But i was been occupied by my spca things..sure they all choose an easy job to do and i? Bo bian lor...Choose the hard one..Since no body is doing den all push to mi lor..
Poor mi rite..Yeahx i know... hahax... I was asking huiyi that time and asked her where r u? She replied mi in a veri du lan way.... " Hw i know sia? I been siting here ever since just now'" I was like, can't u just sms her or call her a call since u are quite free den me? ( dun worried i didn't shoot her back) I keep quiet and do the stuff at the same time i called chengchin ...
I reaili dun understand sometimes abt her .. haix.. wadever lar..I just have to give way to her can le...That's the one thing i can do... right chengchin? haix..Chengchin if ur leg still haven recovered yet plz go see doctor..if u need someone to accompany u , just tell mi , i will accompany even if that day is my N levels but of coz larhx my exams mux finish 1st den i accompany u on that day... ^^ Same to jie also !

To everyone..
Plz ar...I keep doing and seems hardworking is becoz i wan teacher to give us the 4hrs that is worth it..And i earn it by myself! I can sae firmly i deserve tis 4hrs and that's the truth! Although most of the ideas came from iman but i still help and do...Isn't?
Wei qiang sae i 'act hardworking' Yeahx that's truth , i am a veri veri lazy person but that's doesn't mean i will let my laziness overwhelm me! i can choose to be lazy and i can choose to be hardworking as well...And in facts , we human have our own right to choose which one we wan urself to be...
* Remember to wear more clothes as the weather is darn cold these few days*

* Jie *
Jie muz be reaili enjoy herself today! coz today is her last exam paper and also is her's frens birthday celebration .... Right jie? u so good sia...After today got 1 months plus holiday while me? HAve to suffer another 1 months plus..haix..Dunno if i can cope it or not...haix...Everyday i feels so worried abt my result my exams...Honesty i felt quite stress....Oh yeahx...i sae before i got somethings that cann't tell jie that time..Now i dun think I'm gg to sae le bahx..Coz i was so tired to recall things now...and let's just FORGET abt it! Is nothing actually , nothing importants..

My flu keep on and off...But my illness is not worsen den chengchin and jie coz they both got headach , my jie especially got the worst headach and she dun eat! when she study! Hw can sia...Sorri chengchin if u also like her plz dun do that! Jie shows mi a 'Good' examples hor...
Both of u all ..PLZ AR! Take GOOD care of urself! See i know hw to take care of myself so wad abt u two????????????????????? Dun make mi worried abt u two can? But lucky u all tell mi..If not i sure will burst into pieces if i find out! Coz, concern abt u all ma... ^^
* Both of u two (jie and chengchin) better have a good rest today! *

# i dunno when i will just finally collapse and go straight to the hell #
# i was so tired and i feel hopeless and i just can't do anything to make myself better each day #
# i hate myself for such an irritating & disappointment person to everyone!#
# just leave mi to die can u? #

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