Jus wanna to hold on to u.. When nothing mattered~

✖I don't care what life will be in future!_____I jus wanna to hold u TIGHT close to me!_____✖

Friday, August 15, 2008Mood Up & Down~~

Wow! my blog gg to become MONKEY blog ...Hahax..Full of monkey hor?
Too bad ar.. I like monkey alot lolx...hahax...
Take a good look at >>> Side of the blog! Got a box hor??Don't u find my blog so neat and better now?

Thanks to my sister, Cheng Chin ! (a HTML pro) ^^( wei, cannot ask her to help u all ar..unless i ask one, coz she ONLY can help me! hahax! No time for u all! Hor chengchin?)
hahax....

Today went to jie house...
Hahax! Jie actually wants to trick mi rite? by putting money inside the letter! lolx!
Too bad i knew it! Why i so clever ar? hahax...
Jie, i won again!! hahax...
Jie hor veri cute sia..keep using all kinds of method to trick mi and then stuff money inside somewhere ar...But hor, aiya i still will know one....^^
(I was abt to sae 'jia you , u will succeed one day one') >> Tot abt it again better dun sae that, if nt she will do it again!
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JIE!!! How could i break my promise u tell mi!!! haahax...Dun misunderstood i not blaming u...^^ Don't worry i still will do finish at least before 12 tml(no cannot tml got CIP so the most finish before 7a.m)! okay? At least i did do rite? ^-^
Tml gg ur house and put a letter outside ur house.. dun think u will at hm bahx..so yeahx...
ZzzZzz, i became more noisy at my jie house le, I talks alot ar...
Is tis good? huh? Maybe?Maybe not?

Jie thanks so much for ur helped, Care, for being my god sis!! U teach me , advice me, guild me , be my listening ears , and many more!

*I'm sorry i can't help u much in ur studies or any areas (><) but i do hope that in future i do can help u in some ways! =P*

I hope that our sistership will everlasting!

Tml still got CIP! zzz...Going on my own, my frens nt coming bahx..but i will go coz i wan to earn more CIP! Hoping to get a A2 for my CCA points! After that maybe gg to buy stuff 4 my xxxx and go jie house and give her the letter bahx....Go home and slp! lolx, No cannot maybe go return my story book 1st...Then go hm sleep liao, go study wont be online on msn recently coz , i will stick to com very long den cannot study liao...Sorri jie! I can't msn u le ><>
*Tis apply to my dearest sister as well*
Erm, u all mux be thinking hw come i got so many ' sisters' rite?
Aiya actually nt alot larhx..so far got 3/4?
Who?
Sisters--> Jie, chengchin, huiyi, maybe sw?
Always hang out wif ?
Huiying, li jun *inculding my sisters*

A muti-Racial group
Musfirah, ashy, santina, shob

See, so is consider very few liao....^-^

Honesty, i reaili feel veri fortunate, lucky , happy to get to know jie , maybe that's called fate? hahax...I didn't know that i can trust a person so much again especially some one who is older den me(2years)Someone who i can relie on , Someone who helped/care/guild me , Someone who deserve my trust! Someone who is always there for me when i nid help!

However i do wants to make tis thing clear ! jie, cc, hy or anyone who i think that deserve mi to love,care, help ,or wadever are VERY IMPORTANT TO ME! (maybe sometimes my actions does nt seems to be, but in my heart u all will always be veri important to me!)

-Is my pleasure to help u all!!! ^^ -

-Parts of the songs I like-

我的不安
那么沉重
只有你不懂
是我想太多
你总这样说但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由oh...
默默低头　那时我很多　
话哽在喉咙
请原谅我　原谅我不成熟,你的寂寞就给我承受
换你过更好的生活
爱过恨过哭过也笑过,其实我比谁都要懦弱

Negative of me!
Ytd i was veri angry wif myself, i ask myself why is tis all happening rite now?
Why do my attitude likes tis?
Why i always got most of the faults from other ppl?
Why i did tis and that?
Why my study become like tis?
I zi bao zi qi (u know)

Well, i think tis i nv tell jie bahx..coz , i also dunno why, just that i feel that i always got alot of things to sae.. which i have to stop doing now...Well, i writing tis on my blog , coz i jus wan to brust out everything. Jie these few days have been my listening ears , so i dun wish to sae too much , u know is bored to heard mi sae all the unhappy stuff...
Don't worry, i always have stuff to throw my anger on...But i nt gg to sae hw i do that..just that i will find a way..Maybe doing silly stuff?Sleeping? lolx...

Just now bathing, i was thinking izzit feeling tired is my reason why I seems to show attitude at jie ytd?There's better ans now, which is I was feeling veri down & tired haha, just that i didn't show out too much....Jie dun worry too much abt me..I'm alright! No matter hw sad i am, hw angry i am to myself, I WONT FORGET TO SMILE! =)

Do u all know that is very important to smile? So start practicing to SMILE! =)

-Pingz-
Lots of thoughts went through my mind~~

ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--

10:05 PM

When everything surrounding me,
Is nothing but a fake disguise,
I know I have to go on
But somehow I need you to stand by myside'

I tried to hold u back as long as i can
But i know i got to let go Someday
Before u go,plz tell me where I went wrong ,
So that i can changed,

even if i know u wont stay
but I know hw I feel abt u nw
I try to be nice, but you just laugh.

I'm not fitting in anymore, what can I do?
You don't realize, but it's starting to hurt.
When everything's just right, it always turns to dirt.

Help me, what am I doing wrong?
I don't understand, I'm there when your not strong.
I try to be happy most of the time, but it's getting harder now,

knowing your friendship isn't mine.
But After all,I dun bear to lose u >.<