Jus wanna to hold on to u.. When nothing mattered~

✖I don't care what life will be in future!_____I jus wanna to hold u TIGHT close to me!_____✖

Friday, August 8, 2008Whether is Rain/shine....

Let mi start

-I'M SORRY!-

-Wow! -

Today was a bad day for me...
Numbers of things I had encounter today
1. Huiyi angry wif me cause she sae i last min ask her to go..Which i ytd did sms her and ask but she fall aslp le.Dong wen also a bit du lan mi..cause i last min den tell him.
2.Huiying and Sw have respective reason why they were unable to come tml for study at siet lin's house.So tml I'm alone!lolx..
3.My leg was cramp till My whole right leg like a STONE! Can't even bend it ...(seriously den normal cramp bahx)but was bak to normal after a while.
4.Jia yi is nt going for parade tml cause i forgot to ask her to come so...
5.Tml I'm gg to kana scolded by mr neo due to the number of ppl turn out for tml parade at NE court.
6.Today morning for no REASON , i was kana say by michel that today i didn't wear full-u? Okay, veri stupid , cause i dun have to! yet she sae me?
7.*Almost* everyone seems to be so cold to me...exp for some! I wonder why ar...
8. D&T journal gg to hand in soon jus next tues(12augs)
9. I was so called a 'organizer' for chengchin birthday , is nt a bad thing but was so called last min.

I moody, I angry(myself/others),I emo, I can't take it anymore
YET!
I have to remain my smile! Well, maybe things jus seems worst for me RIGHT NOW!
But I will NOT let it to engulf my smile and happy....
Because i know I will soon see the sunshine! & wad really bring me back ALIVE is a little swt and happy inside my heart.

- WTF! Showing mi a FARK UP face? I NOT scared of u anyway!-
Firstly i would like to sae that... The reason why i ask for everyone comment abt the things that was gg to held on sun,
1.I dun wan u all to feel left out like u all didn't do anything or feel so clueless abt wad was happening.
2.I dun wish u all to be angry over the things that was cooked.
3.I wan everyone (those contribute) to organize and do things as one.

Secondly, The things that u all always assumed u are RIGHT!

1.Do u all think i like to ask the same question repeatedly? (i dun even heard any ans from u all!)
2.Do u all think that i like to be so called a "organizer" ? (no one even wants to organize and still dare to sae I last min?) I know some of them got ask but ask doesn't mean ANYTHING & but is the things u all is planing to do?!
3.Do u think that i like to see u anger over a small thing abt me?
4.Do u think i will scared of u being angry and fark up wif me?
5.Do u all think i like to hold bak my temper and jus keep quiet?

*I just afraid that because of small things , our friendship just 'byebye', and i dun wish to have any cold war between us!*Which i had done it before which makes me remorseful.Thus, i dun wish to repeat my same mistake again!*

I ADMIT!
1. I have done wrong in someways.
2.Last mins things.
3.Things seems trouble in u yet i didn't sae anything?.
4.Ur mood isn't that good!
5*Almost everything i have done seems to be wrong*

At least! At least!
I know hw to admit my wrongs ...COMPARE to ppl who thinks they are just perfectly RIGHT at all times!
Not happy wif wad i have done..Nevermind jus tells me..In a proper way, when u all wants me to changed and realised my mistake , u can't use a hostile manner and talk to me rite?
Imagine, I veri veri unhappy wif the things u do , den i talk loudly and scold u in the public " Blalalala" , Will u feel happy and willing to change? No rite? Is the same logic to everyone...
But if u nv tells me why u angry wif me, How do u expect me to know my mistake?
I'm nt a GOD!
I'm nt someone who have special power to know wads everyone thinking..
I jus someone just like who u are!A Human-being.

-One particular person asked me-
Why i always the one who admit wrong and apology whereby I'm nt at wrong? Especially to those ppl who thinks they are correct.
My ans is ,
I know there must be someone to give in and move one step behind.U can't probably ask that person to move bak when he/she thinks that is correct rite?Just let me take all the blames and fault! I'm willing to take one step backwards.I dun wan the friendship to be just ended like this!

-Tis is my BLOG!-
If u all wants to make any comments abt the things i have type here plz do so IN FRONT of me and TELL me ! Stop giving stupid comments in my tagboard and makes ppl thinks that u are just a cowards nt typing ur name in!
I always have to think carefully abt the things i type last few post but today I'm nt gg to do so!
I'm gg to treat myself better from now onwards, Dun sae i didn't care abt ur feeling or wad..Wad i can sae is that jus because i care for ur feeling too much till i suffer in the end! by nt typing wad my feeling are and nt treating myself any better! Tis should nt be the case!

extract from my msn nick!
If u got try/do u might fail but if u never try/do is 'big failure'，天下无难事，只怕有心人

-end-
Stressed
Pingz

ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--

11:33 PM

When everything surrounding me,
Is nothing but a fake disguise,
I know I have to go on
But somehow I need you to stand by myside'

I tried to hold u back as long as i can
But i know i got to let go Someday
Before u go,plz tell me where I went wrong ,
So that i can changed,

even if i know u wont stay
but I know hw I feel abt u nw
I try to be nice, but you just laugh.

I'm not fitting in anymore, what can I do?
You don't realize, but it's starting to hurt.
When everything's just right, it always turns to dirt.

Help me, what am I doing wrong?
I don't understand, I'm there when your not strong.
I try to be happy most of the time, but it's getting harder now,

knowing your friendship isn't mine.
But After all,I dun bear to lose u >.<