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Friday, September 5, 2008Exam fever?

'N' levels Day 1

-Chinese paper-
Omg! I wrote out of point for paper1 (writing letter)

I was stuck at that question as i reaili dunno what to write...

Darn it rite?

Before the paper 2 , i was praying that paper 2 will be easier and my prayer was been heard!

Paper 2 indeed was easier than paper 1...Thank goodness! But whether i can do well or not , is another question .

'N'levels Day 2

-CL listening compre-

my examiner is my form teacher (miss low) ^^ So yeahx...wont feel so strange ar...

Half way through the listening compre ...

the radios have some connection problems...

I was shocked by it as the listening compre was like on live kind of channels? Not from CD!

So well, the radios have connection problems...So the sound will be like...

half way was cut here and there from passages 3?and finally went no sound! Powerful rite?

and suddenly the sound is back! and wow! We missed the passages 3? Yes! so yeahx.... i was darn blur! Don't know why is tis happening doing this time! The chief examiner came in as well as mr chai ...New radios was been replaced and exam still resumed bak per normal except that the passage 3 will be re-played again..

I didn't know that the chief-examiner have a spare CD! (i think is for in case one bahx)We end late in the end due to the technical problems!

-2a.M-
*Ss paper*

was my next paper which is ss!

Wow! went to mac and ate breakfast! and then went to my sis house and study ss..

I was hoping Sri Lanka to be tested in essay! Unfortunately it didn't! Instead is source-based questions [ =.="]

i did study other chapter such as chapter 5 bonding singapore and it did appear in essay
but i wasn't focus much on that...
So in the end i confuse myself and confuse the examiner as i wrote! zzz.... So i think is i did ' Horribly' !

I was darn emo and depressed after the paper! I keep staring at the air! I dun even know why!

Miss low asked mi how's my paper my answer was horrible!
Wow! So disappointment answer rite? Haix...Yeahx..

She told mi that i always saying horrible but in the end it's turn out good !
well, hopefully it's applied over here!

everyone had left except mi , miss low and jia wei...
Miss low was gg through the letter-writing of jia wei one..and i?My brain broke down!
Siting there waiting for my brain cells to produce bak!

sit and wait~~ Didn't realised that is already 4 plus!
And they haven finish yet so i went hm 1st...

Jus when i stood up and walked passed miss low!

She grab my hand!

I was shocked but wasn't very obvious!

Know wad she was doing? She trying to an wei wo!

Omg! wow! i was darn surprise and happy abt it!

But~ It's didn't heal mi completely!
I was still in that kind of state(depressed kind?)

All these 4 days of examination ,
she tried to boost up my confidence i had for myself once before..

She have been saying ' U can do it one! Don't worry so much ok? good luck and etc!'

But what she got bak from mi was all negative answer!

i don't want anyone to hold so much hope and confidence in me!
I know i will feel veri xin wei
But at the same time i was also veri afraid of disappoint them!

U know?

When i got hm on that day i was unable to study anymore!

I slept till midnight and wake up to study my English!

So last min rite? yeahx...

'N'levels Day 3

-English paper-

Erm.. I don't have much comments! zzz

ok paper 2 i heard some of them sae is easy wherelse my fren , santina said is wasn't easy!

If u asked mi whether izzit easy or not , i wont be saying easy!
Coz i will only sae that if i have 100% sure i will passed with flying colours or i reaili feels that!

I and santina have been telling each other that ' I'm veri scared i will fail! ' during the past few papers!
When i told santina abt tis she always will sae ' It's over! What is done can't be undone'
Well, i replied 'Can ! Go and take bak our papers from the chief examiner ! '
ok is veri lame rite!
hahax...But i will reaili do that if i have that choice to choose! ^^

-Huiyi-
Well, During exam period i didn't spend much time on her and much attention toward her ...
I don't reaili care abt her so much during the exam..
So she kinda feel been left out by me!
She with huiying
And i with santina!
Wasn't that fair?
Well, to her maybe not....
Santina was alone so i accompany her! Well, i hope i was doing the right thing!
I and huiyi i dun have much topic to talk abt...
.plz do understand that as is nt i choose nt to talk to her...

*I realised that*

>jie was not in sg for 3days le(including today!) I was darn bored!
>Some of my friends told mi that they feel their life
so meanless , bored and something seems to be missing,
when her/his close frens stopped sms them for certain reasons...
Those close frens have been smsing, contacting them regularly, everyday without failed!
When they told mi that...
I don't understand how they feels when suddenly those always contact ,smsing them de , just stopped!
Now i understand le.....I realised that i was so dependent on someone recently! Where i not suppose to be like that!
Where is the alone , independent,lonely, chewping had gone!?

-That's my rule!-
I'm back to square !(understand?)
My life gg to be only ' Black and white'

ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--

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