Jus wanna to hold on to u.. When nothing mattered~

✖I don't care what life will be in future!_____I jus wanna to hold u TIGHT close to me!_____✖

Thursday, November 13, 2008I'm BaCk!!!

=?Guys?=
HEY ! I'm back!!
Wow! 7days never update! Reason is becoz, many things happened..
Then i dun feel like update my blog....
haix..

The following things i gg to post is gg to be DARN EMO! so if u all dun wish to read it..
Plz dun continue reading!!! Stop and leave anytime if u all wish to..

[-06 Nov 08-]
Today or i can sae is these few days wasn't a day for me!
Things turn out to be ugly, I..Can't change anything but to bear wif it.
I tried to be funny, i tried to be stupid, fool , idiots,blur,silly!
But nothing seems to be better..
Today , wow! i had a bad temp, my mum make mi angry and i hate being disturb when I'm sleeping!
er.. So far among my frens only sw kana once!! er..Darn sorri!!!
Went out wif dongwen help him to print things. and went hm le
Had a quarrel wif my mum whole day!
From hm to causeway, causeway to hm!
Is veri hard for mi to explain everything but wad i can sae is that,
my big sis, 2nd sis and my mum all saying that I'm at fault! while i not!
Blame mi for tis and that..
The worst person is my mum..haiz..
I'm trying to help my mum save $$, why tis intention of mine become the bad one!?
And i always the bad person afterall..
So i asked my mum " are u trying to sae that u are not in fault? and mean that I'm in fault??
YES!
Wow..I didn't expect that.. So be it..I didn't sae much..
So when i tot everything is just tis bad enough..But is not!

I brought something from power9, but it went lose after playing Basketball wif my sis and nephew.
and he...had a gf and didn't even tell me!Why is he saying all the mushy words while he had a GF? I tot we can bear it for 1year plus le.. sure can bear it longer..But u had proven me wrong!
I didn't affected much on tis, as i know, is impossible anymore!
Everything seems to be FAKE!
So why am i keep on taking it as REAL?
Hw silly i am isn't it?
So after finished playing basketball and badminton..
I went online, and see if that guy gt replied me ma..
=.=" Someone impose as me! and for no reason his frens scold mi WTF?
haix.. I dun mind..Scold mi all u all wanna bahx..
Anyway the one who at fault in the end will always be me!
so why am i keep trying to sae IT IS NT MY FAULT?

Frens?
Guys, i believe even if i didn't exist in ur world, u all still can go on de!
I'm dun have any "big" deal abt myself..
Tis kind of frens i am, u can found it everywhere!
Enough guys, i know some of u been trying to be kind enough to an wei wo..
But i know wad i'm doing, Things are clearly be seen, Everything seems to be wrong!
even the "only" one left , proven mi wrong too!

MY family too! So since in tis world ,everyone is pointing finger on me!
And saying u are in wrong!
So tell me... Wad u will do? ignore? Pretending u nv heard? or, u will accept it even if ur "angel" sae u are not!?

I know for me, close frens dun last.. Dun even nid to mention best frens!
I dunno , maybe the problems lies on me!
I had too many weakness le.. Till it can't last!
Dun sae friendships le.. Even relationsip also can't!
And is always me be the bad person to end it!
I hate myself! i dun love myself at all!

I been thinking if just one day,
I leave everyone, living in a world only I and my family members exist ! Will it be betteR For u and me?
Maybe i should try it one day, without frens!
I dun nid to care that if one day i feel like crying and there is no one there for me for mi to lie on!
Cause i dun do that now or before!
I rather u all HATE me everything NOW! [all come together! den letting everyone HATE me slowly]

Tis post was type on 6NOV just tat i didn't post it!
There are more to come!

=Monkey=
?Half-Way-Dead?

ℂ_There's Still Me_ℙ --Sorry,I'm Not xPerFecTx--

11:55 PM

When everything surrounding me,
Is nothing but a fake disguise,
I know I have to go on
But somehow I need you to stand by myside'

I tried to hold u back as long as i can
But i know i got to let go Someday
Before u go,plz tell me where I went wrong ,
So that i can changed,

even if i know u wont stay
but I know hw I feel abt u nw
I try to be nice, but you just laugh.

I'm not fitting in anymore, what can I do?
You don't realize, but it's starting to hurt.
When everything's just right, it always turns to dirt.

Help me, what am I doing wrong?
I don't understand, I'm there when your not strong.
I try to be happy most of the time, but it's getting harder now,

knowing your friendship isn't mine.
But After all,I dun bear to lose u >.<