Jus wanna to hold on to u.. When nothing mattered~

✖I don't care what life will be in future!_____I jus wanna to hold u TIGHT close to me!_____✖

Thursday, February 12, 2009Is all always up to u to decide!

= 12 Feb 08=

o.O? huh? wad happened sia.. ? lolz! ytd i moody coz of something else lar...

Lazy to laugh also.. den keep my mouth lor... better wad..

Today got MR again.. as usual , run wif bread & huiyi

horhor , miss low u lazy ar..Never come to class..lolz.. jkjk

Den 2nd period is taken by Mdm k..

Then we asked her abt bio stuff? erm.. yea? Den keep laughing till.. huiyi sae i veri noisy? lolz!

U know wad? When u mix wif different kind of ppl , ur reaction/ behavior will looked differently?

after that is MTL ..

Zzz.. 1st time kana scolded by mdm oh~!

Coz i skip her remedial? lolz.. but i do have my own reason..

Den she sae i helped wrong ppl !!

Here the reason!!!

Last wed , npcc had a total defend rehearsal , tis determined whether does np enters into final ma.

& our dear junior didn't do their job.

They suppose to have powerpoint! but in the end didn't do!

I was like!!!WTH!!!! Cause i was in-charge of the total defend script!

& veri good! everyone jus went chaos!

A lot of things wasn't organised properly!

Partly is becoz i dun have time to see their practice last few days!

So bo bian! No PowerPoint, means 30% hope gone??

So i skip my remedial and go library wif jiayi to do.

Actually , miss chee dun wan it anymore.. But still , to have higher chances of winning,

We can't depend fully on their performers.

But lucky , we managed to do a last min presentation.

Den in the stage , they all mess it all up !

lolz! they can't behave properly ar.. zzzzzz Den have to rise my voice again and again.

OVERALL !!

WE managed to enters the final but however, some of the juniors had disgrace us!

zzzz.. but somehw efforts shown.

I gussed it , I will kana scolding one.. haiz..

& Mdm oh sae I had made two mistakes!

But i dun think , I have done any wrong to help them! Coz, I'm not only helping them , but also NPcc

If we didn't win , i will kana from miss uma!

darn it man! ==" see , tell mi lar , shouldn't i skip remedial? zzzz...

Actually , miss chee was right , is not all abt winning,, but miss uma is all abt winning..

So yar.. I must fulfill both ma...zzzzzz

Zzz...Today darn darn suay .. So many things happened..

1st kana scolding , 2nd test failed , 3rd pen spoiled , 4th angry

Alright , these few days always like that. .

Nvm nvm , Jus hack care?

-sign off -

monkey

Moodiness to TALK !

Please don't continue to read , if u simply can't take it..

Or dun give a darn!

Those things that I had done,

Why can’t u all see it?

Why?

I know,

U will always say I’m at the wrong.

Well , I dunno , why u always like to pit-point at my mistakes instead of my good.

Pardon me for not voice out to u all face to face.

But there’s something I hope u all could reaili know and understand.

Well , it is nt my 1^st time asking for understanding from u all…

I Supposed u know who I referring to.

I tried my best to help , Do wadever i can.

Alright alright.. I know wad u all going to sae again.

“did I reaili tried hard enough rite?”

But before u all keep question mi , Why I did tis and that..

And tell mi wad are my mistakes!

Could u all..

Jus anyone,

Try to put urself into my shoes????????

Does u know…

Nowadays.. Things happened on me? So much that ,

It crippled mi? Till, I can laugh uncontrollably?

Till, I dun dare to try again?

Till.. …… I feel like giving up, anytime, anywhere!

My studies.. I flung my history, math, D&T,

In facts all lar..

I know I have no right to complain tis to anyone...

I know I deserve it cause I didn’t much effort in it..

But C’mon!!!

Not only studies affects me, Npcc also ..

& now worst come to worst, friendship also got problem..

Am I fully blamed on these?

Ans me????

I do, I get scolding ,

I didn’t do, ppl start complaining..

HELLO PEOPLE!

Plz tell mi wad to do? Alright?

I simply pissed off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In reality I simply lose the freedom of speaking up !

BUT at least!!! Give mi freedom to sae in blog can?

How badly is the problem?

Studies? – Can might as well, forget abt taking O level

Friends? – Can jus break off? & stop talking to one another.

I sae le…

Effort I put, “they” jus simply deny it .. and sae I didn’t put anything…

Are u all assuming? Is the outcome is more important den my efforts putting in?

izzT?

Confusing!!!

Do u all meant that, every single I do , Make so illogical to “u all”?

Do u all reaili thinks that I’m not trying?

Do u reaili took mi as “good frens” being so important to u ?

Why can’t u accept who I am?

Have u care abt me ? As in , when I reaili nid someone to talk to ..

Will u come and console me?

What Am I to u? A trash? A substitution? A people that come to entertains u?

Or simply a person u look granted of?

U sure u reaili helping mi? Caring for me?

But why are u adding load onto my back? Which makes my life so miserable?

Why? I tried explaining to u... Hoping u could understand... But u didn’t?

Instead u wanna mi to understand HW u feels?

I know , u have ur own problems too , but at the same time , can try to understand me mar?

Took today as an example , u wanna mi to help u. .i did ,

u wanan mi to lend u , i did , and didn't u realized that the pen i lend u was spoiled ,

as u should know wad u did to my pen.

I didn't speak anything abt it , nevermind , now u dun talked to me , as if i was in wrong like that?????

I have my limitation of endure! Maybe there is a point now , that u had excess it... I have nothing to sae..

alright? I dunno wad am i to u , maybe jus nobody ...

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