Thursday, April 30, 2009Plz... Don't ask mi why !Dun tell mi wad!!!
Many many things...
for mi to sae?
So many things thathappened to meI...reaili dun wish that to happen!!But why?Why?i jus can't stop myself from thinking?Why??!?!?It somehow jus drag mi deeper&deeper!I could hardy breathe every minutes and seconds..I could no longer helped myself..
I tried to run away from it,Avoid it...Dun wish to face it...BUT
So many many negative thoughts jus flash through my mind..Over and over again!!I jus can't help it!!
I been craving for help..
But i know even if others wish to help me..
and i didn't choose to help myself.. In the end is still the same!
I cried lots~ It is jus so painful for mi to let go~~
It jus getting worsen and worsen!In the end..I choose to give upAndYet...I gonna give up on somethingthat i reaili cherish the most!!Somethingsthat is so important to me!?Somethingthat is I dun bare to let go so badly?I'M SORRI!!!-------------------- Tears~----------------------------------------- I'M SORRI!!!!I know I'm selfish, Heartless , I hurt u Inconsiderate, Don't deserve to have u Not good enough But I will NEVER let u leave my life..Becoz.. U are my life..If u leave le.. How am I going to carry on wif my life? WAIT!!!TIS IS NT THE END OF EVERYTHING!!!!Having the super confused mind~Negative thoughts...At that time.. I reaili veri confused.. I dunno wad to do..I keep asking myself.. IS tis wad i reaili wanna?Is tis going to make u feel happier if I go??Will tis ease ur pain? Am I going to regret it again? if i give up?I REAILI DUNNO!!!!
At that part of point ... U gave/told me TO: Carry On! Not to give up! U give mi strength to carry on! U ran extra miles just to hold me back! & U make mi realised that I meant a lots to u in ur life...BUT after everything or in facts the things u had told me..I know.. wad i reaili wanna le..reaili..that is To HOLD ON! that is Not To GIVE UP! That is....So much things that i know... I thought We couldn't make it tis time round.. But u proved me wrong! Thanks for pulling mi bak.. thanks for holding mi bak ! Thanks for everything u had done!! Money is always a "factor" that affects us even thought i dun wish to admit it in the 1st place!But after went through so many things..I cannot deny that , it had never been a cause factor in between us! And today.. I'm going to tell u.. It shall nt be the case from now on! Becoz.. I got to learn give & take right? =]After tis incidents...I more scare to have that kind of thoughts~~ Reaili... I prevent myself from thinking too much..If those things might link mi to there... I can't ! I dun wan! I dun wish to! I dun hope for!!! I scare to lose u~ ><
even more...than before...
11:28 PM
Name :[C]hew [P]ing
Nick :Cp,Monkey,Apple,Cp Wanton
Age :16
D.O.B :27 of july
MSN :[Chew_ping92@hotmail.com]
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[A] simple gal bahx, but with complicated thinking mind-set
veri [S]tubborn worx..
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